in your arms

e i g h t

james's pov

she lives with me but she doesn't talk to me.

she doesn't even care. she doesn't care how much she's hurting me and i just wish she would realise how much i want her back, how much i love her.

i. love. riley. and yet she doesn't love me back. i'm not sure she even likes me at this stage.

that's how it's been for the past month. she has a job and she swears she's gonna move out soon, to raise this kid. she had her scan and knows the gender. but i don't want to know until the kids born.

she says  she'll be moving out soon. once she 'gathers up some cash', but until then she's ignoring me. and to make it worse she has these moments where she acts as if we're getting somewhere, and then boom. she's back to pretending i don't exist. it hurts but i decide not to show it.

well. i guess she has no choice in the matter at the minute.

i'm bloody freezing.

trust the heating to just miraculously decide to stop working. trust me to not have enough cash to buy a decent apartment that has heating that acctually, you know, heats.

so now the temperature is dropping dramatically and i'm starting to feel like i'm sleeping in the middle of antarctica naked, so... i have no choice.

i get up, practically shivering, and walk into the spare room, aka rileys room for god knows how long. she's awake and on her laptop, wearing what looks like one of my hoodies but i don't say anything.

i'm pretty sure i lost that hoodie around the time we stopped dating.

"look, i don't know if you noticed, giving your heart is always this cold," i say, not able to help myself, "but the heating broke and i'm freezing, so you're sleeping with me."

she raises her eyebrows. "with you?" she scoffs. "yeah, right. it's not that cold—" she's interrupted by a shiver running down her spine. "okay... okay. i'm coming."

so that's how we ended up here. her tiny body against mine, her head in the crook of my neck.

"i'm sorry," she says suddenly. "for being a bitch. i know it was stupid and selfish, i just don't really know what to do." she sound like she's crying and it makes my heart shatter.

"join the club," i sigh. "i don't even have a proper job. i mean, unless teaching a few dance classes here and there counts. starbucks was great until they fired me." i try to laugh but i'm getting kind of depressed at this conversation topic.

"yeah, well, i don't have an apartment or a place to raise a kid, and i mean, in a few months i'm gonna have a daughter—" she stops.

my jaw drops. "what?-wait, a d-daughter?" i sit up slowly.

"um. no...?"

"i'm-i'm having a daughter?"

"um..."

"i'm having a daughter." i breathe out, laughing. "i'm having a daughter!"

she laughs. "sorry for the spoiler."

"i don't even care anymore, oh my god, i'm having a daughter," i say happily, lying back down again.

"we. we're having a daughter."

"yeah, we," i nod, furrowing my eyebrows. "becuase were such a great team."

she glares at me.

"i'm kidding, riley," i say, rolling my eyes slightly. "giving you haven't talked to me in a month i don't know why you're so surprised."

"you're a prick," she mutters. "i'm sorry, okay?"

"i get it."

"can we just move on? i don't want to hate you anymore. it's too tiring."

"yeah, sure," i smile. "just promise you'll never do that to me again."

"okay," she says quietly, the last thing she says before dozing off to sleep.

~~

omg this was super rushed but i wanted to get them to like each other again lmao
ive decided to stop this book after about 15/20 chapters just so i don't drag it on :)
~ emma