Habits of My Heart

Chapter 1

Xena

I loved him then without even realizing it and I still love him now as I'm sitting here staring into his beautiful brown eyes covered in a mixture of our blood with tears running down my face.

Here we are looking into each other's eyes reflecting and thinking if all the shit we've been through was worth the pain.

In this moment watching a single tear rolled down his cheek I found my answer.

He's worth it..

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Two (2) years before

Xena

I can't believe I'm already in my senior year of high school. Freshman and sophomore year felt like a drag but junior year seems to fly by and now here I am flourishing into a young lady.

Being that I'm a senior my schedule is litt, I get to leave early on Wednesdays and Friday after lunch. On Monday, Tuesday and Thursday I start at 9:30am instead of 8:00am, but the catch is a get out later at the regular time school end.

The best feeling is not having to rush to school early in the morning on Monday's though even though I get out later. I'm not a morning person or evening person for that matter but I would prefer getting my extra 1 hour sleep.

As I'm walking through the halls I start thinking how much I'm really not going to miss this place or the people.

My high school was in a building with three other high schools and my school was on the 5th floor which sucks. Them stairs are seriously no joke and Students aren't allowed to use the elevator unless they have a pass or some doctors note.

Our school is constantly fighting with the other schools in the buildings and there is always some drama.

Last year was the worst, over 20 students were caught sucking dick in the staircase close to the gym. The staircase was renamed as the infamous staircase 20 as our principal called it.

The highlight of the school year though was the many fights. A fight had broke out between the guys in my  grade and some from one of the schools in the building and one boy got his ear bit off no funny shit.

Not to mention one girl stabbed another with a pencil during an argument.

Of course how can I forget the scariest day of my life when our school went on lockdown because they were shooting off roof tops on houses near by.

With all the constant drama I try my best not to get caught up in all of it cause to be honest it's just pointless.

I remain the same quiet person I've always been or at least I try to but it's hard when you have crazy friends that's always in some shit. I remain fairly neutral through every situation that tried to come my way but I don't let anyone fuck with my friends though.

As I'm walking I see my friends Martina, Janelle and Shanique at the end of the hall In front Mr. Keller classroom. I was hoping they didn't see me coming and I'd just sneak up on them but of course things don't ever go my way.

"Bbbbiiiiiiittttttcccccchhhhh!!" Martina scream and took off running towards me with Janelle and Shanique in tow. I had to quickly brace myself for the impact when she collided into me hugging me with the others doing the same.