My Broken Heart

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Recap
I found it my......

Marker. Instead of harming myself, I draw on myself. It helps. I've been about six months clean. I usually draw a design or pattern because that helps me calm down. I sat down on my bed and started drawing. I don't know how long I sat there drawing on myself, but when I was done it was 5:30 pm, and both my legs were covered from the bottom of my foot, all the way up to my waist. I really feel better. Maybe yelling at Max and Harvey wasn't the best thing to do, cause I could tell the felt bad. I could see the guilt in their eyes. I'm going to go talk to them.
I walked over to their room, and knocked.
"Guys I'm sorry." I said. They didn't answer so I walked in. I found a note sitting on their dresser.

Dear Family,
If you're reading this, then you obviously know that we left. Only for a little though. We are going to see our girlfriends. We realized that we don't want them anymore. They've hurt Maddie, and we have too. Maddie if you find this don't show anyone. Keep it to yourself. Just know that we are truly and incredibly sorry.

P.S. Look at your mirror. There's a little something there.
~ Max and Harvey

I took the note with me, and I walked back into my room. I saw a note on my mirror. I picked it up and opened it.

Maddie,
If you found this note, then you obviously found the first one. I'm so sorry for everything I did to you. I'm going to try to make up for it, so take the path you always take to find your favorite place for shakes.

~Max💜

Awww that's sweet. I put on some more decent clothes, and my shoes and I walked out of my house. Right when I got out the door, someone was standing there with a rose, but it was black. I walked down my drive way with the rose in my hand and then I saw someone waiting for me. They handed me another black rose. I walked about five houses down and I got another rose, and it was turning into a lighter black. I kept walking and as I was walking more people handed me roses. They went from being pure black to a pure grey, then they started fading out to white, but there are no white roses. I got to my divorce shake place. I walked in and there Jennifer was holding a white rose, with a note.
"I believe these are for you." She said handing me them.
"Aww thanks." I said. I opened the note, and read it. It said.

Maddie,
If you found this note, I want you to go to the place where you broke your arm for the first time.

~Max💙

Ok. I need to think hard. I've broken my arm too many times to remember where I broke it for the first time. Ok um, ooooo I know Jump City! I landed on it wrong and broke it. That was in Kindergarten. I walked out with the note in my jacket pocket, and the roses in my hand. I started walking and someone came up to me, and they gave me a really small stuffed animal. As I kept walking I got more and more stuffed animals. When I walked in I saw Eli standing there with a huge teddy bear, and a note.
"These are for you." He said.
"Thanks but I can't carry anymore." I said.
"Oh that's ok I'm supposed to take everything from you and take it to your house." He said.
"Ok." He walked off carrying as much as he could. I opened the not and it said.

Maddie,
This is the last one I swear. Go to the place where you can let your feelings go. You come here when you need air, or space. This is where we had our biggest fight.
I probably shouldn't have put that but oh whale.

~Max❤️

That's easy it's the park. I always go there. I walked out and someone gave me and envelope.
"Don't open any of them till you get to the destination." They told me.
"Ok." I walked to the park and I had about 30 envelopes. I got there, but it was already 9:30 pm. Jeez this took forever. I walked in but there were no lights. Suddenly someone jumps on me.
"Be quiet and follow me."
"Ok." I said. The put their hands over my eyes, and we walked a little.
"Ok I'm going to take my hands off. But you still need tikes your eyes closed."
"Um ok." I said. They took their hands off and I did as they said.
"Open." I heard someone say but it wasn't that person. I opened my eyes, and I saw an envelope on a little picnic blanket. It was under the tree I always go to.
"So do you like it?"
I looked up and saw Max against the tree like this.