Phan One-Shots

⛈does life have to be this way⛈

⚠WARNING! CONTAINS DEPRESSING THOUGHTS AND A DEATH! DO NOT READ IF YOU'RE SENSITIVE TO THESE TOPICS⚠
prepare for the feels guys

sequel is called the funeral (it's in this book)

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"phil, i'm... " my words were cut off by the sounds of tires screeching
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i awake to a silent and cold room, alone as usual. i can't complain, my bed has never seen any other human life form besides my own, im an introvert, a loser, a pathetic excuse for a human, im... well myself.

i am daniel james howell.

even the floor is as cold as ice. i got up and walked out of my room, hopefully no one was awake, i didn't need any criticism or just any human interaction at this point. "DANIEL!!!" my mum screeched from the top of the steps "yes?" she looked angry, what had i done this time "i need you to do me a favor." i sighed "what is it?" she gave me a look "i need you to run down to the market and get some eggs so i can make a special breakfast for adrian, he's feeling poorly today." i nodded and got some money and ran out the door. as long as i didn't need to talk to anyone i would be fine.

on my way back from the market i bumped into someone, spilling his coffee and the eggs onto the ground "shit!" he shook the coffee off of his hands "im so sorry!" i looked at him and saw the most beautiful face i had ever seen "im so so sorry, i didn't see you." i covered my face in shame, i was such an idiot "hey, hey it's okay, it was an accident no need to panic." he took my hands away from my face, his hands were soft and very.... sticky. "oh no! your eggs are all smashed." i looked down to the ground to see all of the eggs splattered onto the ground, i smacked myself in the face my mum is going to be so furious about this. i began to freak out "are you okay?" i looked up at him tears flooding into my eyes, i am such a let down, i can't do anything right. i choked down my sobs and continued to stare at the ground "i can help you get more if you want?" i looked up to him "you don't have to do that this is my fault, i should've been more careful." i sniffled and looked to see if i had enough money for more eggs but i was a pound short "im assuming you don't have enough. let me help you." he began to reach into his pocket "you really don't have to do this, i should be the one paying for your coffee." he pursed his lips "don't worry about it, it's really fine, i promise." he extended his hand to me and i took it "i'm phil." he didn't really look like a phil, he seemed so ambitious, nice and well.... gorgeous.

"i'm dan." my voice shook as i spoke "i'd be honored to help you get your eggs back, dan." he was so nice and well mannered, i looked at the ground "uhhhm... you really don't need to do that, i'm not worth the waste of your time." he chuckled "its not a waste of time."

phil took me back to the market and then proceeded to walk me home. "here take this in case you ever want to talk." he wrote his number down onto a piece of paper. we exchanged phone numbers and then he was gone. "im back!" i walked into the house and went into the kitchen where my mum was waiting, i set down the eggs and walked up to my room. why was that guy so nice to me? im nothing, he was so sweet and just a great person in total. i looked at the number and put it into my phone's contacts, i wanted to text him but that would make me seem too desperate which i was, this was the first time i had ever actually interacted with someone without being a complete idiot. don't do it, dan fight the urge you don't need to call him so quickly after.
my phone began to ring, could it be? i looked at it and saw that it indeed was phil, i couldn't have been happier, i answered the phone with haste "hello?" his voice so soothing "hi." my voice was shaking again, i felt so nervous, pull your shit together daniel.