Harry
louis.
Louis Tomlinson, beautiful and most importantly a dick. he yelled at me for no reason after I tried to comfort him. I didn't do anything to him other than help him on the first day of school and make him feel welcomed.
Oh well. Maybe he has some sort of disorder that makes him like that, and if he does then he'll apologize but if he doesn't then I guess I'll just never talk to the boy again. I'll just observe from afar. Like I always do.
Anyways its now Monday night. I have nothing to do but sit, and think. I don't want to talk to anyone, it's not something I do. Talking is like thinking out loud but people would be confused if they knew what I thought constantly so I just decided that talking isn't the best option.
I turn on the tv to see if I could drown out everything that has happened today. But nothing good is on so I settle for a re-run of Grey's Anatomy.
I watch tv off and on for about two hours while getting food in between until I hear an urged knock on the door. I look out to see who it is and it looks familiar but I can't really tell so I reluctantly open the door.
"l-louis." I don't know what to do so I step aside to let him in.
"hi harry"
"um come in?" I say as I move my hand in the direction of the couch.
He sits down and looks at his hands slumped over, I'm guessing he's guilty or just mad. For once I can't really tell.
"so Louis why are you here, and how did you know I lived here?" I ask trying to get a little something out of him.
"I'm here to apologize and just talk, get to know you better and I know you live here because I watched you as you went to your house after I yelled at you." The whole time he's talking he never looks up from his hands.
"oh so you stalked me?"
"no. no. it wasn't like that, I watched you because I felt bad for yelling at you and when I saw that you were hurt I just didn't know what to do, so I watched you walk home hoping you would turn around but you never did, so here I am."
"Oh okay. but it's like 9:30 and it's really dark." I argue because I want him to leave
"really harry? I came here to apologize to you and all you can do is contradic why I'm here? Is that the kind of person you are because if it is I don't think I want to get to know you" he spat
"why do you loose your temper so easily?" I ask because I truly am curious.
"how come you're always so calm?" He protest as if he's 9
"Because I have self control." I simply state
"yeah that's not really something I have."
"obviously."
"harry, come sit down."
"as if you act like this isn't my house" I lightly chuckle as I sit next to him making sure there's space between.
"I want to get to know you harry."
"Then talk to me, we've only known each other for about a day not much you can learn about a person in a day." I said practically swooning over the thought of him wanting to talk to me
"Then let's see how much I can get to know you in the time I'm here,yeah?"
but then it hit me. no. no no no this won't do. I can't do this, he would hurt me. He's straight and he's also a dick. I just need to avoid this.
"no. I don't think so. I think you need to get out, and leave me alone." I said as I stood up and pointed to the door.
"harr-"
"no" I say so softly I'm surprised I even heard myself.
"but harry." He practically begs
"no Louis I don't care what you have to say." I say now sternly
"harry. just let me talk"
"fine, speak" I say as I sit back down on the other side of the couch.
"alright, well ever since the first day of school like the other day I thought you looked cool, you seemed chill. So I decided to start my year off with the right people. May I add that my family is very religious so, that kinda means I don't break "rules" anyways, when this kid I think his name is zayn? Maybe, I don't know but he said you were gay, and that threw me off. because you just don't seem gay, so I needed time to think this through. try and see if I could make this work as a friendship. at first I didn't really believe him and I know I sound sooo steriotypical right now but oh well. so I came here after I found the balls to say I'm sorry and I would like to get to know you better." He says this as he never tears his gaze with my eyes, blinking only few times.
"so zayn. he told you I was gay?" his name feeling like venom falling off my lips and burning a hole into my head.
"well yeah. do you know him or something?"
"yeah I know him, but we don't need to discuss this at the moment." I said while looking at my hands
"Oh alright"
Louis' phone buzzes and he checks it to see who it is.
"oh they can wait for fucks sake" he mumbles under his breath but I still hear him.
"Who was it?" I asked
"just my sister"
"You should go and see what she needs, I'll see you tomorrow" I say as I stand up
"You sure?"
"Yes now go on see what your sister needs" I state while opening the door for Louis
"Okay but just to say again, I'm sorry for being a dick I didn't mean it" he apologizes again.
"Stop apologizing"
"okay okay, see you tomorrow hazzaboo" he says while waving off.
hazzaboo? what in the hell?
I think about the pet name I was just given and mentally preparing myself for this hell I'm about to live with Louis Tomlinson. But then I realize something.
While Louis was here, I talked. But not just a few words like normal I mean like full on conversation. We interacted and everything. The doctors said I would never easily be able to do that. But that was so easy I didn't even notice it until now. Not once did I have a mental break down or yell at him or run and hide somewhere.
What kind of affect does this boy have on me and why? I can't even talk to my sister with such ease. And now I get to see Louis every day and maybe me and him could be friends, more than friends? No no no, he's straight. I can't do that, but if him and I are friends he could really help me. Like really help me.
But now I'm going to sleep because it's 9:55 and I'm already 5 minutes off my normal time. I got to my room and lay down and throw the covers over me. I turn on some music and drift off to sleep with sounds of Vance Joy ringing away in my ears, drowning out the silence.
I haven't updated in FOREVER! it's been like 3 daysss! I'm so sorry loves, I just don't have time anymore because school is sadly a thing so UGH. but anyways there's no telling when the next chapter will be out but it'll be soon! LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!
