A unique start of love

When we first met

10:00 in the evening...

Wooohh!!! End of shift. So tired from 8hrs shift. BUT! This is it. This is the night where I can finally meet him.

I'm starting to feel nervous and uneasy. My hands are cold and shaking. What should I say if I see him? Hello??? And then what?

"Gab.... relax. Gab.... relax", I said in a very low tone of voice like I'm the only person who can hear what I'm saying.

Together with my 2 friends, Kat and Abi, we went to a mini stop to seat for a while and let abi eat her dinner.

Ding! Ding! 1 message received from Neil.

As I open the message that popped up in my phone, my heart beat goes faster and faster like my heart wanted to come out only if there's a chance.

Msg from Neil: I'm almost there. Just have to cross the street.

Now I can't breathe properly. I was thinking of what my friends will think of me when they saw Neil and knew that I only met him from some app. They might tell it to my mom. Plus, I just came from a break up. Neil isn't courting me nor told me he likes me either.

Just to be safe...

Msg to Neil: Hey. Please pretend that you're my cousin. My friend might tell my mom something not good.

Sent

Looking at the glass wall of the store, I saw him right away.

He looks like a filipino actor but I don't know his name.

"Hi", a greeting from me.

"Hello", he replied with a smile.

"Come on in. I'll introduce you with my friends.", I said in an excited tone of voice.

That didn't end there. We went to a bar to unwined from a tiring day. Drink a bucket of alcohol and talk about funny stuff.

"I'm feeling dizzy. Let's pay this now and fix our self then let's go home.", I said while my head is on Neil's shoulder (so drunk).

That night was soooo embaracing. I was so talkative and stubborn. I was about to call a ride but I didn't notice I was almost in the middle of the road. Car almost hit me but Neil pulled my hair back to save me.

He didn't mean to pull my hair because he wanted to hurt me. It's just that, he didn't able to hold my shirt, instead, he pull my hair.

"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU???!!! YOU MIGHT BE HIT BY THE CAR!!! PLEASE BEHAVE!", he shouted.

I was scared and felt guilt from what happen. So after that, I behaved all night.

Kat and Abi went home already. My way is different from their way. So, we told the driver to pull over and drop as near the church to ride another jeepney.

Neil go with me up to the front of our house just to make sure that I'll be home safe.

Msg: You good?

Msg to Neil: Yah.Uhm..... I'm still thinking. You look like a TV actor but I forgot his name.

Msg: Oh. Cogie Domingo? I know. My family and friends told me.

Msg to Neil: Oh yah. Yes he is the one. Anyways. Hey... Sorry about what happen

After that night, more night comes that he picks me up from my duty, goes to the bar and bring me back home.

As days, weeks and months passed by, our treatment to each other goes different than before. We became sweeter.

Another night came. As usual, he picked me up after my shift. But this time it's different.

"Give me your bag. Let me bring that for you. I know you're tired.", he said with a concern look.

"Okay. But you don't have to. But... thanks anyway.", I said with smile then hold his arms.

I don't know why I did that to him. I guess it's because I do that to all the people I knew. To girls, boys, or even gay friends that I already knew.

We are about to cross the street when he went to the other side and suddenly hold my hands tight. I felt secured that time. But I was confused. He's being sweet but he never said he likes me or he wanted to court me.

I hold his hand back as my way of saying thanks for making me feel secured.

A few days after, it was late at night but still we're talking on the phone. I don't know what came into my mind. I guess I just wanted to break my confusion and curiosity. So I asked him...

Me: Do you mind if I ask you something?

Neil: Well, it depends on your question.

Me: Uhmmm.... well....... I just....... well I just noticed that you're treating me so different. Uhmmm.... You are...... I'm really uncomfortable asking this but.. Are you courting me? I'm kinda confuse of the treatment you are showing me.

Neil: What do you think?

Me: uhmmm Yes??? O.o

Neil: Well. Yah. Yes I am.

Me: Then why aren't you asking me?

Neil: Don't you feel it? It's just that. I wanted you to feel it instead of hearing those courting words from me.

Me: (That make sense) Ahright.

That night ends their. But something uncomfortable happened after.

Another night came. He brought me home safe again.

We were in a tricycle when I said...

"Ahright. Thanks for bringing me home. Goodnight and take care.", said I while waving my hands even if I was just 1 ruler away from him.

"That's nothing. Okay goodnight too.", he replied.

He attempted to kiss me and I was about to respond on it too. But quickly, we both stopped and stare at each other. I know I was so red that moment when i feel the warm feeling that slowly goes to my cheeks. I know my cheeks are like tomatoes so I started to act uneasy and went down the tricycle quickly. My heart was pumping fast again. Why did he do that??? And WHAT IN THE HELL am I thinking??? I'm about to respond to that kiss too????

He went home.

After 3 months texting, calling, and courting, he asked me...

"Can you go to my house? I want you to meet my family.", he asked excitedly.

Quickly, I said, "No."

"What? But why? Is there something wrong?", he asked with an obvious voice of confusion.

"Nothing. It's just that....... Next time maybe.", I replied.

Sorry Neil. I'm just not ready to meet a family member for now. I guess it's because of my past. I was soooo close with his family, which made me feel more hurt when he left me. I know you'll understand.

Few weeks more, he asked me again if I could come over. This time I said yes. I just felt that meeting his family is a good thing and I must leave the past behind. Move on to another chapter of my life. But I'm afraid leaving me may happen again. Also, missing the family members might hurt me most again.

The next day, he brought me to their house. I felt nervous from a lot of things that keeps on bothering me.

We're now in front of their door. 3 more steps and I'm in. But..... I choose to stop. Neil stared at me and said...

"It's okay. Everything will be fine. I'm just here. Don't be afraid." he said calmly.

No words came out from my mouth. Just nod.

Neil grabbed my hand tight and says...

"Ready?", he asked.

"(Sigh) Ready.", I said with a little smile.

*What will happen next? Did they gave me a warmth welcome? Will our courtship go to the next level? The more sweeter level?

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