SCARS: Exposed & Interior

Stage #1 ~ Denial

If this stage seems a but familiar, it's because these next few chapter are the stages of grief. I know, I know, this probably isn't about someone dying or getting gravely ill. But for others, that could be the EXACT trigger for all of your pain. Besides, grief doesn't just correlate with the loss of a loved one....it's also ties in with the state of losing yourself. I know it sounds cheesy and fake, but you are the only one who can find who you really are and become whoever it is that you want to be.

It's hard to accept your situation. You don't want it to be true. It's not true. It CAN'T be true. This isn't happening. It's not happening. I can't do this. I can't fucking do this.

YES. YOU. CAN.

Not now, but you'll get there.

Everyone has something that they wish wasn't there. Something that eats at them, like a mosquito you can't shake off. One of our biggest struggle in life is aknowledging our weaknesses. For me, it was my sexuality. It's been almost a year since I first came to terms with myself. I was in love. Correction....I AM in love. She's every shade of perfect that a person could possibly be. At first, I was in DENIAL. I told myself, 'You just admire her,' 'You just think she looks nice today,' 'You only hang out with her because she's funny and smart,' 'YOU DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR HER.'

But I DID. I was just to afraid to embrace the truth. I thought that if I respected that part of my personality, that I would immediately show as bisexual. As if my Roman Catholic father and brother would suddenly see me as a rainbow unicorn and shun me just because I now didn't reject my own emotions. And no, I still haven't told them. Maybe I'll wait til the wedding? Just kidding!

All I'm saying is that you're NOT ALONE. There are so many unique individuals who are struggling with unconditionally loving themselves. These include: bisexuals, homosexuals, transexuals, demisexuals, pansexuals, intersexuals, metrosexuals, androsexuals, cissexuals, gynsexuals, skoliosexuals, and heterosexuals- yes, the straight-as-a-stick peeps have feelings, too (and any other sexual preferences I have forgotten). None of us know what's ahead in our journey of life. We are FREAKED OUT!! How the HELL do we do this?! Honestly, I don't completely know. WAIT. WAIT! WAAAIIITTT!!! Don't click out of the page. I still am here. I still UNDERSTAND. I'm not you. I don't think like you. I don't act like you. I'm probably not even in the same sexual, social, or gender class as you are. But I GET you. As Zach Efron and Vanessa Hudgens would say, WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!! 💃

This is a sanctuary; your own little safe place to think. There will be no judgements, stereotypes, or rejections of any kind.

I know this sounds cheesy and a little stalker-ish, (I'm watching you...😏....JUST KIDDING!! 😊) but I LOVE YOU!! SSSOOOOOO MUCH!! 💞💞💞

PM me if you need advice, answers, or support. I'm here for you. I'm ALWAYS here for you. Don't hesitate. I might be a little late responding, but I am a full-fledged believer in showing you to the road of self-love and self-respect. 

🎵R-E-S-P-E-C-T! FIND OUT WHAT IT MEANS TO ME! 🎵

Sorry!! (I get a little carried away when it comes to music!!)

Long story short, we are going to break down the walls of hatred as a team!!

Our pledge (that I will say after every chapter from here on):

WE ARE UNICORNS, BITCHES!! 🌈

WE ARE SUPER AKWARD!! 😋

WE ARE THE CHAMPS!! 🏆

WE ARE MISFITS!! 🙈

WE ARE ONE!! 👆

👬👭👫

🌍🌎🌏

#loveconquersall

#nohate

#beyou

#loveyourself

#respectyourself

#allinthistogether

#strongertogether

#neverchange

#unicorns