Zahra- Scarred

Zahra- Scarred (chapt 4)

Chapter 4

...I hate my life! Tears ran down my red cheeks.

I then stared at the water and took a deep breath.

I then slid down as my head disappeared under the water. Many things ran through my head as I squeezed my eyes tightly making sure I didn't breath out. I thought about my mum and how she was such an alcoholic and such a crappy mother and my Dad.

Just the thought of him gave me more determination not to give up and get out.

I lay there for 40 seconds with nothing on my mind. I was a good swimmer so I'd be under here for a while.

I tried my hardest to think of something good to remember before I left. You know the laughs, the times I had nothing to stress or worry about but this was all ages ago. When I was 11 years and younger and I can just about remember what happened but nothing interesting. My body was becoming immune to the freezing cold water as I soon stopped recognising it was even cold.

The slight texture to the water surrounded me as it stood still.

I was trying my hardest not to think about it but my body began reacting, I was starting panic due to the loss of oxygen I wasn't consuming.

I was fidgeting trying not to make noises or even just move as I tried to block the feeling out with images of my dad raping me trying to keep me remembering why I am doing this, but it wasn't working.

My body was shacking as I scrunched my fist trying to keep myself under control, I could hear myself splashing as I lightly banged against the side of the bath.

My mouth then opened itself as I breathed out helping me relax myself slightly, but didn't last for longer than 10 seconds as I began fidgeting again.

I spread my hands slapping it flat against the side of the bath and scratching it. My head was becoming light headed as I was now fully ready to come out from under the water but I knew if I did I will have to face him again and again until I was finally prepared to deal with the pain and leave.

I was screaming in hums trying to keep myself from coming up but I was determined and nothing could stop me now.

Dad-Zahra? You in there?" my eyes shot open as they automatically burned.

And with that my body rose out of the water.

Me-Yeah Yeah, I-It's me" I said coughing slightly

Him-you okay?

Me-yeah, I'm fine

Him-are you having a bath

Me-yeah, I just. Was hot" I said lying

Him-Okay get to bed soon

Me-okay

Him-night princess" Goosebumps rose all over my body

Me-night" I said as a tear ran down my cheek.

Me-arrgh!" I growled quietly. I got up! I was so close!

I sighed and got out of the bath and stared at it. I pulled out the plug and waited for it to all drain out. I stared at what could have been my death... Wow.

I soon came to my senses and thought.. I need help. I need to leave this house, I need to escape him or I'd just end up killing myself when it's not me who deserves to die, it's him.

I quickly washed out the bath and went into my room. It was nice a warm. I dried myself and watched my cold body. I looked so pale, so dead, empty.