A Soldiers Hart || lucaya

chapter 12

Lucas pov

Im honestly so heartbroken. I mean she married the guy obviously she lives him. She came to me heartbroken from him. I cant look at her. I cant talk to her. It will make me cry and my heart break all over again. I have just been sitting in my guest room mostly because i cant stoo crying. I think i know. I know she is going to choose him. She's gone i heard her talking to smackle. I come out if the room of course to eat, drink,  and use the restroom. She is always in the living room so its hard to avoid her. Just after that night, what am i supposed to do.

*Flash back starts*

After our visit from chris we got into the car and began to drive home.

"Im sorry." Maya says softly as tears are pouring out of her eyes.

"Are you in love him?" I ask.

"Well i didn't marry him for just hus looks." She replies.

"How can you do that?" I shout.

"What?" She asks.

"How can you love two people?" I shout once more.

"Maybe the same you do!" She shouts back.

"I never was in love with riley! I loved her but i was never in love with her!" I yelled.

"I cant always control how i feel lucas! Yeah he did a pretty shitty thing and i forgave and im still in love with him, but you broke my heart too and i forgave you and im still in love with you! Trust me if i can turn off my emotions i would cause look how much it has fucked up for me! But if i did i couldnt have fell in love with you, and i love the feeling of being in love with you!" She cries.

I hurt her. Stop!

"But you love the feeling of being in love with him too."

Dumbass!

(You are)

I know!

"Let me out of the fucking car now!" She yells.

I stop the car and she gets out of the car. She walked away, and left.

*flashback end*

I havent had the courage to talk to her since.

I walk into the kitchen and start making a sandwich and then maya walks in.

Maya pov

I walk into farkle's house and immediately make eye contact with lucas who was making a sandwich.

"Hey." I smile softly, but he looks back down.

I sigh and start dialing chris' number.

Me
Chris

Hey princess.

Hey.

So have you made up your mind?

No but tomorrow i wanna spend the day with you. Just like dinner, movie walk and stuff like that.

No talking about if we are going stay together?

Nope!

Ok, anything you want sweetie.

Ok meet me at topangas in 20.

Ok love you.

Love you too hun bye.

*call ends*

"Who was that?" I hear a voice say.

I look behind me to find lucas staring at my phone with his sandwich.

"Oh look who decides to talk to me. You know its usually the one who gets yelled at, that doesn't want to talk to the person that yelled at them." I chuckle.

"Im sorry." He croaks.

"I know." I say.

I stood up and hugged him.

"Im sorry huckleberry, i didnt know this was gonna happen." I sniffle trying not to cry.

"Its not your fault. I shouldn't have made you feel like it was." He said still hugging me.

"You saw who it was huh?" I asked.

"Yeah." He responded.

"You ok with that?" I asked.

"You need to figure things out to make you happy. Of course im ok with it." He says.

"I love you huckleberry." He peep.

"Love you too PeNeLoPe."

I let go of the hug and nudge his soldier.

"Way to ruin the moment jackass."

I get my stuff and start to walk out, but kucas grabs my wrist. He pulls me in for another hug and slowly lets go and we loom into eachothers eyes.

"You'll always be my one and only." He whispers.

Im stuck. Im lost in his eyes. I just wanna...wanna kis him. But he kisses me.

Dammit.