A Soldiers Hart || lucaya

Chapter 20

1 month later

Lucas POV

It'd been a month and Maya hasj improved....a lot. She us eating she is in better moods.. The only thing is she never comes out of the room. Neither do I unless I cook or do something, but other than that I want to spend all my time with Maya. Because I love her, and she knows that.

Maya POV

"Lucas...you still love me right?"

"Have I not made that clear?"

"No you have its just I'm getting divorced."

"I know I did most of your paperwork."

"Lucas I'm pregnant with your baby."

"I know, I have known for 4 months now."

"Ugh never mind."

"Am I missing something?"

"No! Nothing at all good night!"

"Maya its 2:00 pm."

"Well I'm tired."

"You slept 15 hours."

"Exactly I need more sleep."

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"Maya talk to me."

"I dont wanna."

"Fine I'll talk...why haven't you came out of the room?"

My eyes widened. I turn around sit up and look at Lucas in the eyes. I can't tell him its because I miss Chris. I don't want to think that its because I miss Chris. Why should i? He left. He hurt me... Just like my dad.

"I dont wanna talk.."

"Well I do Maya! I had to deal with 3 months of you not talking. 3 months of you in pain over another guy. Now try seeing that from a perspective of a person truly, deeply in live with you and tell me it doesn't hurt. Tell me that you wouldn't want to beat the shit out of the guy that made you cry. Tell me you wouldn't want some god damn answers!"

"I miss my life Lucas ok?!? You are the one person who knows me better than anyone and you know I hate change! You know how much has changed? I walk down the stairs and see that my husband-ex husband isn't sitting on that couch, like he was everyday I walked down those stairs. I hate it when change is bad!"

"I'm a bad change?"

"Lucas that isn't what I meant."

"No Maya I asked you if you wanted him to come back and you said you didnt."

"Cause I dont, I love you! I'm in love with you!"

"Then why isn't being with the guy you love a good change?"

"It is! Lucas...with every closed door there is an open window. Your my window! I'm going through a divorce from a man that I loved. He was there for me when you weren't. You said you wanted to beat the shit out of the guy who made me cry. How many times have you beaten the shit out of yourself."

"Everyday I looked at you and didn't have the guts to say I love you. That's how many times. Everyday I thought about kissing you, but I didn't. Do the math. I am so helplessly in love with you."

"Really than why haven't you-!"

"Why haven't I  what?"

"Nevermind."

"No Maya talk...I want answers remember?!?"

"..."

-----------------------------------------------------------ooooh what is Maya gonna say? Idk. Sorry I haven't been in schedule but I think imma start updating on Sundays cause if school and crap so ya bye love y'all comment thoughts!