I am a stupid girl who rejected my mate!

Chapter 2

Today is my 18th birthday.

I wish mom and dad were here. I would of been excited for today but I'm not. I can't bring myself to be happy, how can I when I am the reason both mom and dad are dead.

After I got discharged from the pack hospital, I came home to an empty house. I got visitors from the pack members giving their condolences for the loss of my parents. I appreciated it but I didn't deserve it. Everyone has been very supportive even the Alpha of the pack, Chase.  Chase and our luna Amy stopped by today to let me know I can move in their house. They have a spare room set up for me. They have a son who is soon to be Alpha once he finds his mate. I've personally never met him, but kimberly my best friend told me he was  in search of his mate since last month, when he turned 18 years.

Mate huh...
Now that I am 18 years I would find out who was my true mate. But that's the thing, I don't want a mate. I didn't deserve anything good in my life. Instead I deserve being alone, I deserved to die on my own, to rot in a miserable life...
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I start packing my stuff, I grabbed a picture of mom and dad. I stared at it for awhile, mom was smiling at a little baby who was sleeping soundly and peacefully in her arms. Next to her was dad, who was hugging mom tightly and looking down at the baby, happy and proud. A tear escaped my eyes, seeing mom and dad hugging the baby, me, made me miss them more. Soon enough I fell to the ground on my knees sobbing.

"Mom, dad, I'm sorry... I wish I was patient, I wish I didn't make it a big deal to be late. I wish I didn't get mad neither but I did. I don't deserve you guys. Maybe if I didn't exist, the crash would of never happened. You guys would of been alive.. I'm so sorry"
I continued sobbing and sobbing until I fell asleep with a final whisper "I love you too mom and dad".
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I woke up, and decided I needed to finish packing what I didn't the day before. I only needed a few clothes and shoes. I didn't need much to take. I decided to look around one last time before I headed to the main pack house, where I would continue living. I couldn't afford to pay the expenses of the house which is why Chase and Amy invited me to their place. As an alpha and luna it was their job to make sure everyone in their pack was safe, and that everyone has  a place to stay. I still convinced myself that I didn't deserve any of it.

I went downstairs and memories of mom and dad popped up. Them showing me to play the guitar. I remembered my 10th birthday, dad got me my first soccerball, I was so excited about it that I practiced everyday until I got good. That's how I became top player on my soccer team, if it wasn't for dad my passion for soccer would of never sparked.

One last tear, one last goodbye. I closed the front door of the place full of memories I had of mom and dad, I started to shut down every little good I had for myself. I didn't want any goodthings coming in my life.
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As I'm walking through the wood slowly, I started debating whether I should turn to my wolf or walk to get to the pack house. I decided the latter and continued walking.

Not far I saw the house, I stopped and started second guessing. Should I continue on and go or should I just turn around and run the opposite, leave everything behind and start new? I didn't know what I wanted, if I go to the pack house, I have people who would support me and be with me. If I runaway and go the opposite, I could start new and have a better chance of avoiding the good things in life.

I'm standing out side when suddenly I saw a figure, standing in front of the house. He looked very handsome and strong. My wolf started to shift and suddenly the smell of something delicious hit my nose. The smell that I was trying to avoid. I move a little closer and our eyes locked. The word that I didn't want,came out of my mouth.. MATE.
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I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! I did as well, my heart breaks for carla, but like they say! There is always good after the bad. :)!
Who do you think her mate is? If you want to take a guess you can leave a comment!
Have a lovely day darlings!