Dear You

06

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you took a part of me with you,
to your grave.

i never felt so helpless, with nothing i could do.
you survived long, you were so beautiful and brave.

but that couldn't stop the path you felt you had to pave.

i thought my heart would ache a bit.

i was so, so wrong.

my whole body feels hit.
my self worth is shït.

i couldn't, quote on quote, "Stay strong."

not even for you, as much as i tried.
as much as i long.

a part inside of me had died.

with your last breath,
came my own death.

and the days and nights I cried.

you seemed so happy, you said you were good.
you lied.

i tried.
so hard, to keep you here.
but your soul was lost,
no where near,
with no want to hear.

i love you. from the bottom of my small black heart, i love you.

and i can't do what you wanted me to do.

i can't forget, i can't let go.

you're the beautiful angel i will always know.

you made me smile, with the simplest of words.

your legendary story will not go unheard.

you're my inspiration. you're my best friend. a forever fixation with a heart i couldn't mend.

you're my prolonged memory.
a memory in celebratory.

you were my happiness - what do we do when that's lost?

i should have known, meeting someone as phenomenal as you had it's cost.

but you were priceless and i would go to any lengths,
you have you back in my life with all your strengths.

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8/31/17