Just A Little More

I can't be with you

Cierra's POV

Last night I had a talk with Kalama. A talk about my feelings and I just couldn't believe what he told me. I thought... I thought we had something but I was clearly wrong.

Flashback

"So umm.. You and Hayden are done I see," I say as we walk onto the porch of my house. "Yeah I need to talk to him to calm him down," he says sitting next to me on the swing. "Why would you want to talk to him? He'll probably break your other leg. About that is it okay?" I ask as I put my hand on his knee while he moves it away. I look back up at him confused. "Look Cierra I like you but... but I can't do this," he says as I snatch my hand away. "What do you mean?" I watch him swallow and look down as I get frustrated "Kalama what do you mean?" he looks up at me and clears his throat. "I like you. I really like you Cierra but... but Hayden.. Hayden is the love of my life and I've never been with a girl and I don't think I'll be happy with one," he says not making eye contact still looking down. I feel a tear escape my eye and I look down feeling this burn in my throat. Kalama finally looks up and seen the tear. Grabbing my hand and turning towards me he said "look that doesn't mean I don't have feelings for you CeCe. I do but you have to understand I... I can't be with you I love Hayden and he's all I got. Please understand what I'm saying, Please Cierra? I look up at him and nod slowly getting my hand out of his. "I understand. It's pretty late you umm.. You should leave your parents are probably worrying about you. I don't know anything about you anyways it was a mistake I don't know what I thought. But bye I'll see you soon," forcing a smile I walked into the house without him getting the chance to speak. I placed my back on the door and rolled down crying hard and curling up in a ball until I fell asleep feeling someone pick me up guessing it was my mom.

Flashback ends

I'm still in my bed and I just haven't had the energy to get myself out of bed. Every once in a while I hear a knock on the door so far it was Bailee, Sherri, and Maia telling me I need to get up or I'll die in bed. But that was my plan dying in bed. I gotten my heart broken from my first love I don't know why I feel this way but I just do. Another knock on the door and someone trying to open the door but I locked it wanting to cry in piece. "Cierra, open the door love," knowing it's mom she's probably the only person I want to see right now. Finally getting up and unlocking the door running back to my bed to get under the covers. Hearing the creak from the door opening and foot steps walking towards me and a body sitting next to my back. "Cierra love, you can't stay in here all day you need to get up. I know how you feel about Kalama but baby. There are plenty fish in the sea. Love?" sniffling and sitting up to face her. "Oh love, come here my baby, come here," crying on her shoulder as she combs my hair with her fingers. "I...I don't know why I feel this way mom. I... I just want it to stop but it's not," I finally say between tears as my mother brings my head up from her shoulder and wiping my tears. "Love, I know that feeling if Sherri had declined my love for her I don't think I'll be able to live with myself honestly you and your sisters are everything to me and Sherri has the middle piece of my heart," she forces a smile as I rap my arms around her hugging her tight. "I love you mama," I add in sniffling while I feel her giggle. "I love you too baby, I love you so, so much my love," I pull from the hug and smile watching her return it. "Now there's that beautiful smile that I've missed since last night. But the family is waiting for you to come and eat breakfast with us. So what do you say mija?" she pulls her hand out waiting for me to grab it. "Lets go," I smile grabbing her hand as we go downstairs.  

Sherri's POV

"So you don't have to work today?" I ask Teri as we put up the groceries. "No not today but I want to stop by the job," she says as I look up at her. I've been wanting alone time with her but we haven't been having it since Cierra was abused then I had to call for Cierra's singing thingy and Kalama and Hayden's incident now she has to go. "Teri," I say putting the waters down. "What's up love?" she seriously doesn't know what I want right now. "What's wrong baby?" she ask again as I put my head down and shaking my head giving her the water bottles as she takes them and wait for me to answer. "Nothing never mind," knowing that Teri is a highly trained police officer and knows when I'm lying. "Sweetie I know you're lying love. Baby please tell me what's wrong so I can fix it," I sigh and finally look up at her. "We never have alone time Teri," I look down as she boost my head up to look at her. "You know we don't have time right now and I really need to go to the station there is this ca," I cut her off by getting out her grip and walking to the sink and leaning on it crossing my arms. "Yeah, yeah I get it you have to do something with a case that isn't close. Same excuse every time," I roll my eyes as she walks over to me. "Sherri baby I'll be ho," I cut her off again with putting my hand in her face. "Just go I'm fine I might have to go shoot something in a while anyways so I'll be fine," putting the rest of the groceries where there suppose to be while I feel arms rap around my waist. "You're not mad at me for doing my job right?" she ask me kissing my neck knowing she as this affect on me. "No I'm not but please come back I want to spend the day with you okay?" I ask as she blows on my neck. Guess that's a yes.