Lucky Me

Chapter 5: shopping (part 1)

Tic-Toc. I stare at the clock i haven't gotten any sleep. My head pounds. Was i really about to kiss Liam. But i thought i liked Zayn. Wait i thought i wasn't going to obsess over the boys. I wasn't a big fan like the rest of the girls. I only know two or three songs. Zayn was mysterious and shy, and did i mention how sexy his singing is. I admire his tattoos and how they all have meaning. I think it's stupid to get unmeaning tattoos. But than we have Liam. Last night... or a few hours ago i told Liam something i could never tell anyone. Not even Skyler, my best friend. I used to tell people lies that i still talk to my sister and that my dad and her went on a year world tour thingy. I didn't want people to know about my personal problems. I didn't want people to know that deep down under the fake smile i was burning in pain. from what? Fear, tragic, Loneliness. 

I thought i was alone in this world, i thought i would never be able to let people into my mind and know the truth. One look in Liam's eyes and i poured my soul out to him. I let him know everything. I pick up my Lap-top and write. I always write when i get confused and my mind gets cluttered. I didn't realize how long i was typing until Rissa comes blasting in my room. "Brooke, Omg get dresses we are going out to get new clothes and i need to tell you something big time!" She scream, jumping around my whole room. Through a shirt and pants at me. "I don't have any money." I say shutting my laptop. "Doesn't matter. We need clothes for the week so the boys said they would buy us some." She said with a huge smile. " Rissa i'm not going to use their money." I say putting the pants back in my bag but keep the shirt. "They offered now get ready!" she yelled and walked out. "Fine" I say under my breath. While i put my makeup i can hear Rissa waking up Skyler. Now that was entertain. Even i know not to mess with Skyler's sleeping. I put on my clothes and walk out to the kitchen. Both Zayn and Liam had been the only two in the room. I sit there awkwardly looking at the both of them. Liam looks back at me. I know we where both thinking of last night. "Um... I can feel the awkward in this room. Why is it awkward." Zayn says. I guess Liam doesn't almost kiss and tell. "What are you talking about Zayn, A pretty girl can't walk in a room without making it awkward around here?" Liam says trying to push away the awkwardness. Zayn laughs. "No, it's not that" He says walking away. "Would you like something to what Brooke?" Liam kindly asked. "No, i'm fine" I say. I find a marker laying on the counter next to me. I take the cap off and doodle a butterfly on each of my wrist. "And what do those butterflies do exactly?" Liam asked. "They remind me that... you know... doesn't change anything. If anything it makes it worst." I say. He smiles. "It helps you stay strong" He says. I smile back. He actually understood. "Yeah exactly." Rissa now comes into the room. "Is it almost time yet??" she said. "Relax Rissa" i say. "You don't even know Brooke. You don't even know." She shakes her head and goes over to the couch and looks for something to watch on t.v. "Where's Sky and Emi?" I say. "Relax Brooke they come out when they are ready. " she says mocking me. Liam laughs. " I think were lucky we ending up with you girls and not some boring none fun fans. I smile, i think that was a compliment. I pull out my phone to text my mom. 

'Hey mom it's nice here in New York. I promise i will be home soon. but we decide to stay a whole week now. Love you. Text me if anything happens.'  

As soon as i press send everyone is gathered in the living room. Just like yesterday we go to the back and climb into the Limo. We pull up to the streets and we all climb out. Rissa pulls me with her and we go off away from the group. I'm pretty sure they all split up sometime later though. We walk into a store i have never heard of before but the clothes were my style and surprisingly not expensive. "So you want to here something that's going to blow your mind" Rissa says as i look through the racks. "Spill i guess" I say wondering whats she is going to say. "So after me and Harry cleaned up Liam asked to talk to Harry... alone. I just happen to hear there conversation through the vent. Liam was asking Harry for advice. Liam likes you Brooke, like really likes you." She says. I blush. But than look at the ground. "I mean i think i like him to Rissa, but i also think i like zayn. and really what would be the point of Falling in love with one of the boys. We will leave in a week and they will not remember us. Not one bit" I say seeing the down side of the situation. "Really Brooke. I heard how sincere Liam sounded. He sounded like he really liked you." She said. "Well ill think about it i guess, but um i wanted to ask you?" I say awkwardly moving on to a new rack. "what?" She said moving with me. she did not seem to like the clothes in this store. "What was that with you and Harry, Making cookies at Two in the morning. really?" She laughs, i did to. "Well, we where talking and i showed him a song i had written. Than we started making funny songs with the guitar and everything. When out of nowhere he told me to follow him. He got out all of the supplies and started to mix it. He told me to get a pan and when i reached for it he decided to scare me. That's when i grabbed the wrong pan and they all fell out on top of us. Causing a loud bang and Harry to drop the cookie dough." I laugh at how ridiculous that story sounded but realized it was most likely True. I pick out a small of a cute pink crop top and go to find some shorts.

"Well due to your loud crash, i was saved from a kiss i would have probably regretted." i tell her. "What do you mean?" She said. "Well We were talking in my room, when suddenly i looked into his eyes. He leaned in for a kiss. But the crash scared us both and stopped it. I'm kind of happy it did to. What if the kiss was wrong, what if we were just not meant to be?" I say. Now pulling out my shorts and a pair of shoes. to match the shirt. I guess i need more than one outfit. "Oh." she said while following me around the whole store.  When we leave i had gotten only 4 outfits. And i wasn't using anymore of their money. When we walk out of the store we run into Harry and Liam who were just walking around on the streets. "Hey guys. Have you found anything yet?" Harry asked. Rissa frowns and shakes her head no. I raise my bag and smile proudly i was in love with my new clothes. "Well i guess we have to get you something little miss Rissa." Harry says walking up to Rissa and poking her nose. She giggled and he did the same. Really she said Liam likes me, i would pretty much say her and Harry where meant for each other. Together we walk into a different store so Rissa can find some clothes. Me and liam sit in the corner while Rissa and Harry play around the store. Teasing Each other He would point to such a ugly shirt and say it was meant for her. Than to get him back she would pick out a dress and tell him it was his kind of dress. They acted like middle school kids, but it was funny to watch. "So, about last night?" Liam said. I look away from the cute 'Couple' and look at Liam. "What about it?" i say trying to play it off, but i knew what was coming next. He was going to tell me how much he liked me and how much he wanted me. And i would be speechless. He would take that as rejection and it will ruin my whole trip. When he starts to talk my eyes get wide. I was wrong i had no clue this was coming. "Well i wanted to apologize, i don't want anything to be awkward. It was a bit of confusion and we were both tired. I think it was a good thing those two love birds made such a loud noise. Or a  mistake might have been made." He said. I laugh. "I thought that exactly. And really they are perfect for each other, look at them." I turn to look at them. Rissa was walking out of the dressing room in the ugliest, non-matching clothes i have ever seen. Harry laughed at her. She pretending to walk down a runway. Me and Liam both laugh. I think for a minute even though Liam had just told me basically the same thing i told Rissa. It kind of hurt. Hearing it from him was different. Again i am hit with confusion and my mind gets cluttered. I hear my stomach growl and look at Liam. He laughs " We should get something to eat maybe?" he asked me. I smile and shake my head in agreement. Liam signals Harry to hurry up and soon enough Rissa was at checkout with like 8 different outfits. We stop by a smoothie place to get some fruit smoothies. Strawberry peach i tell Liam to get me. I laugh as i remember they day Rissa had told us she won the contest. I had dropped my smoothie in the mall. My strawberry peach smoothie was gone forever i couldn't save it. We all sat at table and talked. "I  wonder what the others are doing right now?" i say.