The Things She Thought

guy best friend...?

10:15 pm i need to tell you something. and i need you to not say anything or react until I'm done. okay? okay. i love you. and i don't mean that jokingly or lightheartedly. i love you the way the stars love jet black night skies and the way the sun and the moon love each other and the way the plants love rain. but i don't mean this jokingly. gosh i'm not even sure why i made those analogies, or why its taken me so long to attempt to tell you this. i should've told you the day i figured it out but i didn't. probably because i was and am afraid to tell you in case you didn't feel the same way. but i don't need you to feel the same way. i just need you to know this. no matter what. good or bad. i'm willing to stay by your side. because you've changed my life. you've shown me true friendship isn't who knows more about someone, or how long they've known one another, its being there when they need it. even if that's 4:30 AM because i had a nightmare and can't sleep. or 11:15 pm because some exbestfriend/significant other got mad over nothing and decides to start an argument and needs to be put in their place so both of us fight them. you showed me true friendship is "going to war" for someone, no matter how big or small the issue is. you became my bestest friend in less than a year, but been in my life for almost three. god blessed me with you and i waited too long to realize that. but i realize it now. and you need to know that no one else could possibly begin to take your place, let alone fill it. you truly are irreplaceable to me and god knows i keep losing sleep thinking about losing you. i know this got real sappy but its all true. but back to my main point. i don't need you to say anything, i just needed you to know all this. and that i love you and nothing will ever change that. you're my bestest friend, i'd die for you. don't ever forget this okay?