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by ZeztyLemons

by ZeztyLemons

Sorry in advance of this is, one, bad I'm kinda rusty. And two, angset...just..angst
For reals though, self harm, attempt suicide, ok ending...

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After the squip incident Jeremy and Christine did get together and have been for awhile, Jeremy started to spend less and less time together

Michael's P.O.V

"I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on, or wish on, or something like that"

Why would he like you?

"I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew, was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope"

Your just the loser in the background

"And I believed for a moment that my chances
Were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag"

Michael walked around in the dark of his house, the only
Light being the soft glow of the moon threw the few windows

"Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love"

Michael reached the down stairs bathroom, he looks in the mirror and starts to cry
"Why would anyone like me?"
His phone started to ring, it red Jeremy
He declined the call and looked in the medicine cabinet
His phone rang again Jeremy he silenced his phone and sat it down on the floor

"And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine,
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope"

Michael grabbed the razor behind the allergy pills, he started filling the tub till it was full.he hopped in, some of the water spilling out, and sat there for a minute letting his tears fall

"I said, 'Honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void,' he said
'It's all in your head,' and I said, 'So's everything'
But he didn't get it I thought he was a man
But he was just a little boy"

He grabbed the razor and made one quick cut
"One for hoping"

His breathe hitched as he made another cut
"One for falling for him"
He did more and more till he started to feel light headed

"Hunger hurts, but I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love"

"And finally,for never telling him how I felt"
After that everything started to go black
"Sorry Jeremy, for being such a bother"

"Hunger hurts, but I want him so bad, oh it kills
Because I know that I'm a mess that he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold because these hands are just too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving, it works, when it costs too much to love"

Jeremys P.O.V/ third P.O.V
Christen just broke up with me, we decided we just want to be friends
I've tried contacting Michael to see if he wanted to hang out
I tried calling him not he declined my call, I called again but same thing
I decided to go to his house and see what's up
I tried to open the door but it was already cracked open,

Jeremy franticly burst threw the door and stated to look around he came to the bottom bathroom and saw water on the floor
He opened the door and saw Michael in the tub
He teared up and called 9-1-1

"Michael!, Michael! Please wake up"
And ambulance showed up and took Michael to the hospital
The police questioned him but then gave him a ride to the hospital after he told them what he knew

Once Jeremy got to the hospital he rushed up and saw nurses and doctors walking/speed walking to were they had to be
Jeremy rushed up to the doctor who just walked Michael into the main room
"Is he gonna be OK?!" "Were doing all we can sir, please take a seat"

After about an hour or two the doctor came out and walked up to Jeremy, Jeremy looked up started talking
"Is, is he ok!?.." "He's in stable condition, would you like to see him?" "Yes!, please"

The doctor led him to the room were Michel was
The doctor left the room, it was just Michel and Jeremy now
"Michel!"
Michael looked over and saw Jeremy with tears in his eyes
"Jeremy?, why are you here? I should be dead, were am I?"

Jeremy walked up closer to Michel and sat down next to him
"Your in the hospital, Michel why?"
"You didn't need me anymore, you had Christine, I would just get in the way.." "You could never get in way!, besides me and Christine and I broke up, we just want to be friends.."
"...."
"Michel I never wanted this for you, your my best friend"

Michel started crying again, Jeremy started to worry and look around
"W-what did I say?" "You, you still don't get it do you"
"N-no?.."
"I LOVE YOU OK, FOR LIKE, FOREVER NOW"
"M-mich-" "AND S-SEEING YOU *sniff* with her and how happy your were I knew I could never make you happy like that..."

Jeremy grabbed Michel's hand and closed his eyes, tears still falling from his eyes
Michael continued speaking
"I figured I wasn't need anymore, HEhehe heh " Michel weakly smiled
"Michel... I didn't know... If I did I would-"
"I doesn't matter anymore.." "NO, IT DOES... I made you hurt and look what i-i made you do to yourself"

Jeremy leaned closer to Michael, eyes still closed and tears still falling. Michel looked up at Jeremy and kissed his cheek
Jeremy opened his eyes blushing
"J-jermery I'm sorry I was-"
Jeremy cut him off with a kiss on the lips "shhh, its ok"
Michel smiled weakly, Jeremy did the same
They just laid there with each other, just enjoying the silence
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Jump foreword a month or so after the incident

Michael and Jeremy weren't dating, they decided to take things slow but Jeremy was always there for Michael to comfort him and make him feel better.

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Holy.fucking.shiiitttt
I have been so inactive but I'm actually P O S T I N G
so nothing new people
But I got my email fixed but with so much stuff going on I won't be able to do the big picture thing, but if you guys still want me to do something like that please comment some ideas!

QOTD
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Later you beautiful humans