Fall Out

Crazy

I didn't want this. I didn't. Okay maube I did. But... I couldn't.

No matter what. I am a stronbg independent she-wolf and I did not need a male. Espically a damn Alpha to be possessive and crazy about me. I did not need a controlling bastard in my life. Alpha's are ridiculous and rude. I didn't need it.

But I stayed anyways. I did. Why? I don't know.  But I did. And in the end that's all that mattered.
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"No." I said.
He looked at me shocked for a second. Then he nodded.

"Alright. Your not ready yet that's fine. I'll wait. Maybe later though." He says smiling.

I growl inwardly. He had just asked me on a date and I said no. Quite rudely may I add and still he was kind to me. That made me so mad. But so happy. He would wait for me. He was so understanding. So loving. It made me want him. It made me want to give in. To give up. To let him have me. All of me.

"Yea so I'm going to go to my room." I mumble trying to sound nonchalant but it foesnt work out that way.

"Okay I'll finish up in the office and then I'll have dinner brought here and we can watch a movie." He says.

I nod,"Sure sounds great." And it does. I want to do it. I walk up to my room and sit on my bed. It's been two months and our relationship has been like this the whole time. All because of me. I've been rude,distant,disgusting, unruly, and everything else that could make him hate me. But he's just been compassionate,loving,caring,kind,and patient. It's driving me mad.  I hate it, I love it and it makes me feel conflicted.

After an hour of sitting thier wallowing on self pity and hatred  Valor comes up to tell me he's odered and picked us out a few movies. I stand up. I hesitate. Should I gon or just let him down like every other time. I sigh. Maybe just this once. Okay,one time isn't bad. It means nothing.

When Valor sees me he smiles. His face lights up and his eyes glow that vibrant green that I love. No, I mean.....that I just like the color green. Nothing crazy.

"So I got pizza. Some buffalo wings and sprite. Your favorite. He says handing me a plate.

"Thank you." I say because hey manners are to be used when speaking to all.

"Your welcome." He says and he sounds so happy. It break-
Anyways....

"So I've picked a couple movies you can choose what we watch first. Let's see I got. Think Like A Man 2, The Matrix, The Fault In Our Stars, and Wonder Woman. Witch one?"

"The Matrix." I say. It's the less romantic one of all. Plus I really do love the movie. A lot.

"Alright The Matrix it is."

We make out way to the living room. Valor sets up the movie and turns the lights out.

Throughout the movie he a tries to start small conversations but I reply mostly with one word sentences. He takes the hint and keeps quiet.

I don't know when but I fall asleep. Before I fully close my eyes I hear Valor whisper. "I'll wait for you."