Fall Out

Fight

I groan. Man what the hell is that. I open my eyes. Valor has his arm wrapped around my waist and I'm laying on top of his body. I push my self off quickly. Soon after Valor shoots up.

"Why was I laying on top of you with your arm around my waist?" I ask him. Maybe this will show him.

"Umm I don't know. It seems Like you moved to my side of the couch. I was in the same place." He points out. I don't say anything after because he's right. I moved.
I run upstairs to my room.

"Alia what's wrong. Ever since you've met me you've been distancing yourself what is up with you?" He asks.

"Because I don't want you. I never wanted a MATE!!!" I scream at him.

He freezes. Just looks at me. Then a look of hurt. He looks like he just died. My heart wrenches and I immediately feel guilty.

"Valor I'm sor-" He holds his hand up stopping me.

"Its fine I should've realized sooner." He says shaking his head as if just realizing what he was looking for was right in front of him all along.

"Valor I'm-"

"No don't apologize Alia. It's my fault I didn't see." He leaves.

"I...I...I"

I don't know what to say.

I just.... I don't know.... I just yelled at him. I don't know where it came from. Sure it ws d true but still onwould never tell it at him. It just came out. Kinda just slipped from me. It seems to run in my family. Everyone I know. My grandfather messed up so bad with his mate she rejected him. My dad almost never made it with my mom. She said he barely made it. That is until he told her something. She said she forgave him right away. Dad says this "bad mate-tittude" goes back generations. But....i really didn't want a mate, right? So why did I feel so guilty.

I stayed in my room for hours. When I finally got up it was 3:00 o'clock.

I dressed and brushed my teeth quickly. I was going to Valor to apologize. I made my way outside. The pack members sneered at me. They hated me. First for not fully accepting thier Alpha, for treating him bad, and for bieng a terrible Luna. I was a terrible person. A flood of guilt washed over me like a wave and i trip over my own feet. I get up and dust myself off quickly.

When I get to Valor's office I knock softly after taking a deep breath.

"Umm....Luna...The Alpha has left."

I turn quickly to the voice. It's Valor's Beta, Chris.

"When?Where?Why? And when will he be back?" I ask. He left without telling me. He was really posses. And he had every right.

"Why so you can ignore him when he gets back. Your sick. Looking for him so you can plan on how to continue to treat him like shit. Your a fucking bitch." He spits. I hang my head in shame.

"I'm sorry." I whisper.

"You shouldn't be telling me sorry it's him. And I dont know if sorry alone will do. He's beyond pissed. He's angry." He says less disgust in his voice but it's still hostile.

"When will he be back?" I ask agian.

"Couple days. A week at most." He says.
I gulp." Oh."

I walk away swiftly. I run to my room. I fall on my bed and cry. I had no right to cry tho. I had hurt him not the other way around. I had caused him pain. I was the one at fault. So I had no reason to cry. But I did. I did. Because deep down somewhere in me. I cared. And it hurt me.