THE OLD MEMORY

Chapter 2: Feelings

Thinking back now, Iv'e always had feelings for Maddox. They were always more than just Sister like feelings though. Mother and Father never knew that I loved my Brother, come to think of it...No one knew. Maddox was always there for me and cared for me when times got hard and or difficult. Thick and thin he'd be next to me, But this wasn't why I was attached to him the fact of all of that he did for me only helped me love him more. Have you ever felt like someone was almost made for you? thats how I felt about Maddox. I don't think that Maddox feels the same but ever since that kiss we shared for whatever odd reason it happened, Iv'e been longing for him to make another move ever since. I lay awake at night sometimes continuously fighting and debating myself if I should tell him how I feel or at least show him how I feel, Every time i'm close to saying it I choke up because the fear of rejection from him. I couldn't stand up strait if my own Brother declined my love. Maybe He felt the same way? Maybe he didn't. But my mind goes to the kiss we shared when we were young every waking moment. I woke up feeling light headed, I looked around and my curtains were still slowly blowing in the wind. I got up and put on a white fleece so I could walk around for a bit. I checked on Maddox and he wasn't there, I panicked for a second then looked out the window and saw that he was sitting on the porch. I opened the door and took about 4 steps out before he turned and looked at me. What're you doing up Ash? you should be in bed. I could say the same I replied. I took a seat next to him and snuggled up under his arm. What're you doing up? I looked up at Maddox. He looked down at me and then looked out into the fields of green and said: Nothing, just a dream. I suddenly got somewhat excited, A dream? what about? Maddox just shook his head so I left it alone. I ended up falling asleep in his arms and when I had fallen to sleep he had picked me up and carried me to bed and laid me down. I woke up with Maddox pressed against my back, I blushed a dark red once I noticed he was awake. Well good morning Ash! I got out of bed quickly and looked back at him. What the hell Maddox!? Y-you cant do things like that! He smiled with his eye's closed, What do you mean I can't do what? I was still blushing like a rose, Y-you c-cant sleep in the same bed with me! It's not right! Maddox got up out of bed and hugged my head into his chest. My body got warm all over. M-Maddox? He let go of me and sat back down on the edge of the bed. Yes? he smiled at me. Nothing...I didn't realize I was hiding my face with what little of the fleece I could grasp. Why you hiding? He chuckled. I threw my fleece down and yelled: I'M NOT HIDING!?