The Impossible

Is This Jealously?

I looked around my apartment and sighed. It was a mess. I took a deep breath and started cleaning by rearranging my books on the shelf. I was only halfway done when I gave up and grabbed the remote instead. I began flipping through channels. I saw that BTS was on TV so I continued watching. It was an old Music Bank episode. I smiled when the camera focused on Jungkook. I was singing along when my cellphone beeped. It was a text from him.
Chloe, I'm sooooo sorry but something urgent came up so I can't take you out today. I'll make it up to you. Are you free tomorrow?
What did he mean there was something urgent? I couldn't help but worry. Anyway, I typed.
Yes,
Great! See you tomorrow.
That was weird. I got really worried. Was he sick? Is something wrong? I couldn't control my curiosity so I called Rapmon. He picked up right away.

I hung up immediately. Was Rapmon lying? Or perhaps I misheard. As if in a trance, I make some searches online and made a call.

When I hung up, I regretted it. Why was I like this? Was I misunderstanding for nothing? My mind was telling me I was going crazy for making the decision. However, my heart was congratulating me.

Nevertheless, I grabbed a cab. With a concert ticket in my head, I felt like crying. I recalled my conversation with Rapmon.

"Didn't you know? Jungkook got free tickets for IU-sunbaenim's concert and he's going."

Yes, you're probably going to say I was crazy. I know I was. Jungkook and I were barely friends and I was over-reacting. When I was just a fangirl, I saw other fangirls getting jealous. I wasn't. I knew I had no chance with them back then. But now, when we were supposed to be meeting, he ditched me to see a concert of his ideal girl.
I was outside the concert hall. The concert should be over by now. I waited and waited. Then I saw the one I was waiting for. He was in disguise but I'd recognize him anywhere. He was all alone, no bodyguards.I followed him and tapped his shoulder. He whirled around and gasped when he saw me.
"Chloe!"
"Annyeong, oppa. Surprised to see me?"
"Chloe, I can explain.... When I got the ticket, I refused. But but the hyungs insisted that I go. That's why I canceled our plans. I'm soooo sorry."
That was when I broke into tears. I was surprised that he was being so apologetic when he did nothing wrong. He even wanted to choose me over her. I felt like an idiot for stalking him. We weren't even in relationship and I was being a bitch. I was pretty sure he didn't even like me.
"Chloe? What's wrong?" He sounded worried. People were starting to notice a girl crying in the middle of nowhere.
"I'm soooo sorry oppa. I heard that you were going to IU's concert and I got a little mad."
"Why were you mad?"
I was silent. As I was a fangirl, both of us knew I liked him. However, I wasn't going to admit I was falling for him for good. I hate myself so much because I was never the type to admit my feelings. I just sighed.
"Well, IU's your ideal type. You know how fangirls react when their idols interact with their ideal girls. I was just being obsessive. I hate myself for it."
"You were jealous?"
"Well, I know that it's none of my business. I know there's nothing going on between you guys. But I couldn't help but wonder."
"So, you were jealous."
"I don't know. I've never been jealous before." Shaking my head, I turned away, tears still in my eyes and headed home. I cried all night.

I hope you like it. Btw, this is just a story so I have no hatred towards IU unnie. I'm her fan too.