EXODUS || KMS

Part 33- The Patterns on My Heart

I woke up after i fell on the floor along with hitting me head on the coffee table. Just great. I squinted my eyes to check the time and my surrounding. It's 9.25!? How long was i asleep for and how was i under my blankets!? And my eyes feel heavy and all puffy. I pouted at the thought of that. This was really weird, me sleeping for 5 hours and a half. Well Mark may have covered me with a blanket. Yeah. I spent the next few minutes staring up at the ceiling and thinking about what to do next. I slept nearly half a day this was a good 'nap'. Although i could also have a good night's sleep. I got up and drank some cold water before heading up my room with my blanket and turning every light off behind me, as i walked up the hallway. I knocked onto Mark's door which he never opened. So me being the smart ass i am, i decided to go in. But what if he's still 'mad' and something bad happened to him i thought. Naah. I entered his room anyways, we'll be married and this is so pathetic of us fighting and shit. I opened his door and glanced around the room, it was clean and tidy. "What the fuck, was this all a dream!?" I turned on the light that was supposed to be busted and broken but it lit up the room revealing Mark sleeping peacefully on his bed. Maybe this was all a dream. But is was so real! "Goodnight, Markiepoo" i whispered before turning the light off and closing the door behind me.

I then soon reached my room which was just 5 metres away from his bedroom door to be exact. We lived together for 5 years. I was looking for a place to stay and this was a place i was offered by Mark. Its a pretty good house, we each have our own en suite, fancy heh? but its cool, im girl and i need my privacy. Since i was already off a wealthy family, i didn't want to make it obvious that i was in a depressed state with Minseok!, so i studied at home for 3 years and was certified in fitness and health. So now i have a degree. Great. Benefits of being rich. Thanks mom. Then me and Mark became really good friends and we worked together. "Ahhh my bed." i sighed in relief as i snuggled up under my blankets and drifted off 'trying to sleep'. Such a not wonderful day i had didn't i? I can't sleep! Minseok and Bora, i kind of expected that since she was madly obsessed with Minseok that she had to go through all that just so one of us could hate each other or leave. What if he had never even existed. There would be no problem. Me and Minseok would be living happily right now, Tao, Kris and Luhan would have been with EXO. But Luhan follows me on Insta and Kris does too, this is so confusing i actually dont know whats going on.

But in a way i wouldn't have been forced in a marriage by my parents to Minseok anyways if i hadn't died in my previous life and if i never left Minseok then i would have never met Mark. Was all this destined to happen? I should accept my fate and whatever happens in the future i should not harm myself because of it. After all i'm just 23 years old actually 223 to be precise. Gosh Vampires never age i wonder how i'll live with all these scars in this life. Technically someone will have to kill me. To think about it now, my life is pretty fucked up. I have an ex husband with 3 children who are grown up, i'm engaged, i was a queen for 10 vampire years which in this world means that time had just paused itself. come to think about it, he marked me. I quickly looked at my left side chest and there it was. His initials. K.M.S He owns me. We need each other. But he might have Marked Bora too. She's pregnant with Minseok's child. Were done, He found another mate. I left a heavy sigh as i thought about what happend in Bangtan city Palace. All the things i wanted to do as a normal person, hang out with friends, party, live my life to the fullest as a happy and exciting person then meet a guy who i think is my type then we would have gone from there. I dont know why my parents had to get me married at 17!

My ex husband 'caught me cheating on him' when i was actually playing with my twins with the group. How can all these fucked up things happen that is just unbelievable. Most of all why didn't i prove him wrong? I sat up on my bed and turned my side lamp on. "Why didn't, i prove him wrong?" i could have but i didn't, i was too hurt and ignorant of his words that i was too hurt upon his words. I had never been so insulted in my life. Not even my friends would call me a slut if we fought. He just went too far. My own husband insulted me by calling me a slut not just in that world but this morning. That's right he did call me a slut, not once but twice. I don't get where he gets all the hate from? I walked off from my bed and sat on my bay window and looked outside for a spectacular view. There were cars driving, and it started raining kinda like showers creating soft pitter patter like patterns, i stayed and listened to it then it started raining constantly and creating irregular patterns. Thunder struck and i immediately ran off to my bed in fear. I turned off my lamp and waited for sleep to take over. Sleep when will you come?