The Little Blonde Girl

(A/N: this is a little sad but I really wanted to write it. It's fictional nothing at all is real. Hope you like it. Comment, vote, fan :) )

Once there was a little girl with blonde hair and green eyes. She would always smile and laugh not knowing how to cry nor frown. Even though everything around was crumbling down around her, she had no idea. Mommy always had a porcelain face on and daddy always seemed happy when the little girl was there with him.

One day this all changed when the little girl came home from school and she heard screaming and fighting. She went to mommy and daddy's room and saw daddy get in mommy's face. The little girl tried to make him happy by being near him but he ignored her. She didn't quite know what to do so she ran into her room slammed the door hid in the corner and cried and cried and cried. No one heard her sobs or they just did not care. The little girls brother saw her sadness even though she would keep a smile on to hide it and he tried protecting her saying that mommy and daddy were okay but he was completely and utterly wrong.

A few years passed and mommy and daddy fought more and more each day. But the little girl lied to all those her around her and kept smiling.

Then her granny got sick and passed away in August a day before 2nd grade started. Her mom was going to let her stay home but the little girl just smiled and said she was fine. She knew she had to be strong for mommy. She had to show her had to wear that porcelain face again. 9 months later the little girls paw paw died, which just killed her more on the inside.

2 years later the little girls mommy and daddy finally broke up and daddy left her with nothing to hold on to. Her brother gave up on trying to be there to help her and just sulked by himself.

When she started school again she hung around the guys and that made it feel like a man in her life cared but something was missing. One day at school a little boy said he loved her and that made her heart race. That was it she needed to love someone wholeheartedly like she did her father.

Even though her father was barely in her life she still praised him hoping she would be the light in his life once again but he lied over and over again to her but she did not understand.

She began to think that if she loved a man or dated them she would feel up the empty space

The little girl knew a little boy who was broken. His family wasn't together anymore and the little girl believed e was like her but she was wrong because he was worse and he don't believe in love. She waited patiently and the two would do everything together. The hole was finally filling up. She finally told the boy how she felt and he was surprised he said he felt the same. She believed him and they "dated" it wasn't a real relationship but it made her happy. She did anything he asked o her even if it was stupid and shameful.

When the little girls father went to jail the broken boy stayed by her side making her want to please him more so he would stay by her. She changed everything about herself for him. One night at a party he made her do something she always has regretted.

He then cheated in her and broke up with her. The little girl just smiled and nodded agreeing it was for the best. That was when she heard if self harm. She grabbed the razor blade from her fathers old razor knife and slid it across her skin. Seeing the blood made her smile. She didn't cry after she did this. So she would bottle things up and smile everyday like she was fine, but once she was at her breaking point she would cut and all her frustration and sadness would disappear.

Her mother then met a man and he brought them to a new place. Everyone called her a freak called her ugly, fat, stupid, bitch, and worthless. She would just laugh but when she came home the cutting got worse. Once in high school the names stopped and she then met a girl that was also broken. They became the best of friends. The little girl was afraid to tell the other girl of her past so she held it in.

The little girl then met a boy that made her heart flutter more than any crush she had before. She was in 11th grade and he was a freshman. He made her laugh, smile, and blush all the time. She still needed the holes inside her to be filled.

The little girls father at first talked to her over the phone when she moved away but the little girl was the one to make the effort. When her father got put in jail a few days after her birthday , which he did not even call to wish her a happy birthday, he stopped all communications. Now the little girl knows she was there to his convenience.

And now she is afraid that boy that makes her heart flutter is just doing the same. He only holds her when he wants to. He never holds her when she cries he actually seems disgusted when she does.

So she smiles letting him think she is fine when really that razor blade is finding it's way on her skin and biting her lovingly so she can go another day without breaking.

She knows she should not but she feels stupid when she talks to someone about it. She just wants to be strong for all those around her physically and emotionally but she feels that she is letting them all down.

She finally wants to tell her best friend and this story is the best way to sum it all up.

That little girl with blonde hair and green eyes is gone without a trace but someone sits in her place. A girl that's broken, stupid, ugly, worthless and a monster. . .