Not One For Love (Camren)

Chapter 9: The Thoughts Are All Yours

Camila always believed that fame was one of those things that she will never tire of, no matter how many paparazzo she fights, nor how busy her life becomes. Fame, applause... She lived for those things like Tinkerbell, and she wanted nothing more than to live the Broadway dream by breathing in the cries of the crowd at her job well done.

She stares at the ceiling of her empty apartment. In her arm chair, a tumbler of chai tea in her hand, no artificial means could seem to warm her. Despite being dressed in her warmest knit sweater, Camila still shivered. She rubbed her hands along her arms, but it did nothing, so she wrapped herself in a blanket.

The heat was broken.

One letter masked what is truly wrecked. One letter made all the difference.

Each time she allowed herself the downtime to think, Camila's imagination often wandered to Lauren. She wanted to know how many women she had touched in a day. How many cried out her name as they came. But in all honesty, thinking about it only enabled annoyance and a rage she had no idea how to control.

Camila didn't want to think about Lauren being with anyone else but her.

In frustration, Camila got up and shrugged on her winter coat. After sending Dinah a quick text, they agreed to meet up in their favorite diner. A quick bus ride later, Camila sat on a booth and played Candy Crush on her phone while she waited.

"Hey, what's wrong? That was a pretty urgent-sounding text." Dinah asked, pink-cheeked and breathless as she slid in the booth in front of Camila. "And I hope you're ready to face Normani's wrath." She tucked her phone back in her purse and locked her fingers on the table.

"I just needed to get out of the house. All this idle time is not good for me. Ever since we finished filming the movie, I have too much free time on my hands." Camila sucked in a sharp breath to slow down the flood of words she wanted to speak. "I'll give Normani a gift basket or something to make up for this."

"I get that." Dinah nodded sagely, patting Camila's hand before ordering coffee for herself. "But in two weeks you'd be wishing you appreciated that alone time more."

Camila nodded. "I know." She nibbled the inside of her bottom lip. "How's Lauren?"

It was the first time in weeks that Camila spoke her name out loud, and it was easier than she thought, like an incantation she memorized long ago. The sound of Lauren's name in her own voice still had the same effect—pleasant with the aftertaste of missing her. She watched Dinah's features as she took her time adding cream and sugar to her cup.

"She's fine, why do you ask?"

Camila shrugged. "I was just curious, that's all."

Dinah squeezed Camila's hand in hers. "Mila, in another life, I have no doubts that you and Lauren would be good for each other. But in this world, I don't think it's smart to entertain the idea of being in a relationship with Lauren."

"Did she tell you how she feels about me?" Camila demanded, hands clenched into fists. It was hard to hear, but she had to, if only for the peace of her mind.

"She did," Dinah's voice dropped into a low volume that forced Camila to lean in closer in order to hear. "But it's not my position to interfere between you two. Just know that Lauren's feelings for you are real." Hearing this, Camila sat back, wide-eyed and shocked. Dinah smiled. "I've never seen anything affect Lauren the way you do, Camila."

She sipped her coffee, filled with delight at the taste and the satisfying news she just received. She couldn't see any other course of action but to say, "Dinah, what's her address? I need to see Lauren. And soon."