There's no secrets here. | Joe Sugg.

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"The only thing i'm gonna miss from this place is you." I stuffed the rest of my clothes into my suitcase and frowned at Emily. Today was the day I was moving in with my cousins. I had just turned 21 last week, meaning I was old enough to travel from LA to England away from this stupid orphanage.

So here's how it all started; Jack and Conor had agreed to 'look after me' until I was happy enough to live in my own house after my mother had passed away in a car crash when I was only 4. And don't get me started on my so called dad. I never met him, he left when he found out my mother was pregnant. Stupid prick. I don't really have an idea of what my mum was like because I don't remember and I've only ever seen pictures. All I know is that she was the most beautiful woman. 

My mother was a single child, I had no aunts or uncles to look after me so I went straight to an orphanage. I became roommates, after being alone for 7 years, with a lovely girl called Emily who is my best friend to this day. I'm 4 years older than her. She's waiting to be adopted again after her last foster parent didn't treat her well. She also lost her parents at the age of 9. I can't imagine how she feels being rejected 3 times by possible foster parents. 

I was always jealous of her gorgeously tanned skin and long, thick black hair. Her clear complexion paired with beautiful hazel eyes and long eyelashes. She was just perfect. Then there was me. Paler skin, long-ish brown hair, and blue eyes. Emily used to say that I was unique because in my right eye was a blob of brown. I just felt as If I had something wrong with me and that I was weird. But there's no doubt in that. 

Living with only one friend for my whole life would most likely make you feel lonely or depressed. I've never felt that way. In fact, It's made me more appreciative of the world around me. I'm more in love with the sky and the stars. The trees and different creatures living out there. However, I didn't get much time to explore that, and observe life. It was like I was trapped. We all were. I get to be free now. Free from the 'torture house' as most children call it. 

"I'm going to miss you so much Maddie." Emily hugged me tight, a small tear falling from her eye. I rubbed her back.

"Stop, you're gonna make me cry too," I fanned my eyes, in attempt to dry them. I finished packing by zipping up my suitcase and bag, leaving them on the floor. "I really hope you find a nice home to live in. Make sure to stay in touch." I smiled at her once again as we exchanged our numbers in our phones that we were bought when we each turned 16.

"I definitely will!" She grinned. "Maybe one day I could fly out to see you and the boys in England. When I'm old enough of course." She laughed slightly, wiping a tear from her left eye. 

I hugged her one last time before making my way down the stairs with my bags. This is it. Freedom.