You Were Always The One / z.m [au]

Chapter 9

PEARL

There goes another kiss.The guilt rises up and my heart is pounding.

If Zayn loved me so much why did he date Perrie?

Was it all just to calm her down from her depression? Impossible.It's silly to calm someone down by dating them and officially being engaged with them(accepting their proposal).Although,Zayn was the cause to Perrie's pregnancy.

Hell's gates were open for me and I'm guessing I'm listed down the list of those who go to hell.I just can't stop loving Zayn like he loves me.I'm trying to support his engagement with Perrie but I can't.

"Pearl." I heard him whisper.

"Zayn,we really can't do this anymore."

Zayn bit his lower lip,"What do you mean by that?"

"We shouldn't keep this as a secret.We should either break our relationship or just confess to Perrie about the affair."

"Pearl,calm down."

I took a deep breath but it was still in me.

Zayn continued,"Why not,I get married to Perrie,I'll divorce with her straight away-"

"No!" I interrupted.I continued,"Don't do that.It's better to act now than later."

Zayn got closer to me again,actually I was waiting for his answer if he agreed to act now but I was just so interrupted with him.(Definition of 'Him' : tall,dark,handsome,sweet,flirt,hot,etc)

Instead of our fourth kiss,he hugged me tightly.It felt so warm in his arms.My arms slowly rise up to hug him as tight as he did.

"Let's tell Perrie." Zayn whispered to my ear.

My heart beats faster I knew Zayn could feel it.

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Unfortunately,the plan of telling Perrie didn't last long in our heads.We were just too in love and it would probably ruin everything if we confessed.Yes,it was wrong but nothing can break true love right?

I looked at the right to find myself looking at Zayn,sleeping with his little snores.Like I thought again,I just wanted to shove his face up mine and kiss him.Just not now.

I switched off the television,we were busy watching The Carrie Diaries and Zayn actually enjoyed it.His enjoyment made him drown to sleep.I got up and took a blanket slowly placing it over him.He slowly snuggled to it in comfort,he was so cute.

I grew a grin and slowly walked away.

"Pearl."

I looked back and found Zayn with his eyes half opened with a smile."Stay."

I chuckled and walked over to him,"You expect me to sleep here? On the cold hard ground?"

"No,here." Zayn's words meant by,"Sleep next to me."

I grinned,"Okay."

Zayn slowly pulled me next to him I was captured by his hug.I could hear his heart beats.My head close to his chest as I was about to sleep.Before that,he hugged me tightly making my face closer to his chest,making it clearer to hear his heart beats.

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I wake up to the rise of the sunshine embracing my skin,the chirps of the birds and most importantly,Zayn next to me.

His face was perfect.I tried to get off from the couch but Zayn's arms was wrapped around my waist even I struggled to let go.

I sighed and looked back at him.He was still asleep.I played with his hair a bit until his eyes widen up.

"Good morning." I grinned.

Zayn smiled,"Morning."

"So,what do you want to do today?" I asked and continued to play with his hair.

"Let's do something together."

"As in go somewhere?"

"Maybe.Your choice." he smiled.

"We can just stay here and watch America's Next Top Model Marathon-"

"No,no,as in outside." he interrupted.

"I'm not so sure."

I thought a bit..does he like beaches?

"Do you want to go to the beach?" I asked.

"Uhm..I don't really have a feeling to swim but I don't mind going there."

"Great! I don't want to swim either.Let's just walk and talk."

Zayn nodded,"Okay."

I walked back up to my room to find suitable clothes.I searched through my closet.

I ended up wearing my yellow sin dress I got from Perrie and some yellow flats.It sure felt like sunshine to me.

I walked down the stairs and I hear Zayn talking on the phone,

"Yeah,mom.I'll see you in a few weeks.But the wedding will be held in California.I've sent the right amount of money for the family to visit here and don't worry,Perrie is amazing.Love you mom,bye." I heard him hung up.

My heart ached a bit.I really didn't have the mood to wear an abundance of happy sunshine anymore.A single tear went down my cheeks.My make up was ruined a bit.I walked back up to my room to fix up my face.No matter how many times I wipe my eyes with my cloth more tears began to cry out.I tried to stop myself and wiped it with the cloth,I stopped crying but my make up was ruined.I promptly took my make up remover together with my cloth to remove the horrible eye make up.After that I quickly applied my eye liner and mascara back on my face.It looked better but inside of me still felt like shit.

Before I could make my exit,I sat on my bed and slowly laud myself down,in sadness hoping a tear won't cry out again.I began to hug my legs and silently having my depressing moment.

A knock hit my door.I didn't answer it by opening the door or replying,"Come in." Instead,I hugged my legs closer to me.My heart was just so broken.

"Pearl." Zayn's manly voice called.

I didn't answer him.

I felt his weight sit by the side of my bed.He stroked my hair.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

My sniffs didn't want me to answer.I hugged my legs closer to cover my bloody face since I was crying so bad.

I felt Zayn's arms wrap around me.

"Are you upset about the conversation I had with my mother."

My head nodded.

"Pearl,my mom just wanted to know about it.I didn't really mean it."

"It just felt like you meant it and I'm just so...dramatic." I sniffed.

"I understand you.But hey,look at me." he said.

I slowly turned my head to his,I noticed that we're hugging each other.I had my head on his chest.He could hear my sniffs.

"Maybe we'll just stay at home." he said.

I shake my head a bit,"We'll go."

"No,not today." he said.

Zayn hugged me tighter.My sniffing stopped.He raised my chin to his face,he saw my horrific face.

"You look cute." he laughed.

I grew a small grin at him.After that he reached for my lips.It didn't get all sweet anymore.

We got more intense.

My body stood up and so does his.I had my hands wrapped around his neck circling around his lips.My dress got unzip.Leaving me half naked.Zayn paused the kiss to slip of his shirt.Damn,he was so hot.He went down to my neck and gave me love bites.Just what I craved for.I moaned a bit.

Goodbye virginity.