Summer Secrets | E.D

16|"i didn't have many ideas"

| Iris |

"You did."

I was once again at a lost for words.
He literally always knows what to say.

I looked at him, and he was already looking at me.

We stared into each others red eyes.

I finally sniffled and said, "Just please come home."

He wiped his hands on this thighs and shook his head.

"No, not until you believe me that I'm a better person now," he put his hands in his face.

"I believe you, Ethan. Nobody has payed attention to me like that. Nobody. I understand you're better now." I put my hand to my chest.

His eyes looked back down at the water.

I want to be with him so bad. More than anything. I've never been so happy with someone. But, things are so difficult right now.

I took my hand and put it on his face, pulling him to look at me.

I searched for something in his eyes. To see if he was lying. They looked so pure and scared.

I leaned in slowly and kissed his cheek.

I don't know why I did it, but he let me.

He took my hand and held it for dear life.

I dug my head in his chest and thought about what's been happening.

This right here was amazing, but it's too early for this. We still have a lot more to talk about.

I got up and he looked at me confused.

"Will you come home, now?" I said pleading.

"Yes, I will. I just need time," he continued to look at the water.

I nod and leave him there with his thoughts.

| Ethan |

I wish she knew how bad she fucked me up.

But, I'm just glad she knows I'm different now.

Well, she could've lied. She could've lied just so I would go home. Whatever, I was going to anyway.

I walked all the way home, stopping to get lunch on the way there. I stopped at Iris' favorite pizza spot. The same place Luke took her that one day.

Damn, I'm such an emotional wreck right now. We weren't even dating and I'm going to her favorite restaurants and acting all depressed.

I made it into our neighborhood and quickly shot my head at her house. Her car was parked in the front, she was home.

I was tempted to go, but I remember I was the one who said I needed time.

I walked into my house and Cameron jumps on top of me in tears.

"Ethan! You're home!" She yelled holding onto me.

"Yeah, I'm fine Cameron", I say.

"Where's Grayson?" I questioned.

She finally let go of me and gulped, "He's out looking for you, we were so worried."

I sighed, "Thank you, but I just needed time away. I'll go ahead and call Grayson."

She nodded and hugged me one last time before heading off to work.

I went up stairs to sit on my bed and I gave Grayson a call.

He picked up almost immediately.

"Ethan?! Ethan?!" he shouted.

"Gray, I'm fine. I'm home." I could see his worried face in my head.

"Fuck, Ethan. Stop doing this shit. I'm coming home now." he gasped for air.

I laughed and hung up.

I started a shower and soaked in the warm touch it gave me. Almost like Iris.

I thought about what I could do to make it better, I didn't have many ideas.

A loud shout interrupted my planning.

"Ethan! Where are you?!" Grayson screamed.

"Chill, Gray! I stink, I'm in the shower!" I laughed.

I got out of the shower and Grayson and I talked about what happened.

He was the only person before Iris, who knew about all those secrets, he accepted me for my mistakes.

I explained to him how much Iris means to me. He was shocked to hear I fell for a girl so quick and so in love. Well, I think I'm in love.

Being able to finally express myself and explain my feelings to someone is very helpful. I had all my emotions bottled up inside me I needed to vent.

Grayson let me rant to him for about an hour, until he mentioned a party.

"I know this may be a little early, but Nate is having a party in 2 days. It might be nice to loosen up a little. A little drunk and dance a bit. But, if you're not ready, I understand." Grayson explained.

I slowly nodded.

"Why not? Wait, should I invite Iris?" I asked.

He bit the inside of his lip. "You know, Nate, he's been trying to get with her. He already invited Iris," he sighed.

Grayson got up and patted me on the back and shook my hair and walked out.

I layed down in my bed and took a deep breathe out.

Let's hope this party goes out well.