"let's be friends again."
in which a lonely girl attempts to fix a lost friendship with the only one she can trust, or at least that's what she thinks
COVER BY ME
Ignoring Woojin for the whole entire day was utterly impossible, everywhere I went, he followed trying to apologize to me. But I really had enough of this, I couldn't turn back again. I was betrayed too many times that I couldn't just fall into this one.
I ate lunch with Sejeong but didn't talk to her which, surprisingly, she noticed it well and asked what was wrong but I just shrugged it off. Jinyoung, Somi and, strangely, Daehwi also approached me and asked what was wrong but I just told them to ask Woojin and Yoojung.
stupid woojin
stupid woojin hyerin please look im really sorry i didnt mean it i just didnt want to look stupid in front of yoojung im sorry ugh i messed up didnt i i really dont mean it i know im not good with words but please believe me im sorry and i want to be your friend
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baejin hyerin are you okay? can we talk?
somsom um i should talk to her girl talk works the best
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hwiparam someone please tell me what happened between the three of you guys pleaseeeee
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yoodaengi um but woojin why are you ignoring me hello?
baejin did you do something wrong?
yoodaengi um no why would i?
baejin if you did, i will kill you
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stupid woojin hyerin i know you're reading this so please answer me im sorry
baejin did YOU do something wrong? dumbass im going to beat you woojin lets fight
stupid woojin its a misunderstanding please dont kill me get permission from hyerin first i really didnt mean it hyerin, we need to talk please
hyerin💖 fine benches out in the back after school if anyone of you guys come along i wont speak to you guys ever again if you cant convince me, jinyoung can beat you up because you deserve it
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I sighed as I watched Woojin jog over to the bench and sat down next to me, grabbing both of my hands and putting them together with his, "Hyerin, I'm really sorry. I don't know what I was thinking while I was saying that."
He looked at me nervously, trying to see if I had any reaction to that, "I didn't mean it that way. At first, I did pity you. A lot. You used to be such a friendly person and everyone liked you. I missed that in you so I couldn't help but reply with a yes."
And the gullible side to me was already appearing just with that little confession. He continued with his hands still grabbing onto mine, "But when I became friends with you again, I found out that you had never lost that part in you, you just hid it because you were afraid of what people would say right? I loved it when you looked so comfortable hanging out with us last weekend and I don't want that to be a bad memory."
"Woojin," I sighed but he stopped me before I could continue, "I just wanted to say, I'm really sorry. I just felt kind of empty with the answer you gave me last week, why don't you trust me? I mean now you have all the right to not trust me and I guess I can't do anything about it."
"I don't trust you," I sighed as I looked down, "And it's my fault that I don't. I'm sorry too. I can't help it." I felt him remove his hands from mine and pulled me into a hug, "No I'm sorry. I was just stupid." We sat there like that for a moment in silence while I tried to contain my gullible side but I couldn't.
"It was that one time," I mumbled as I pulled away from the hug, "That I found out that not everybody likes me. I couldn't help but feel sad about it so I started being self-conscious. Everyone I became friends with, swapped me out with a new friend and I was really sad about it. I was jealous that they became closer and that I felt like I was used. They only came to me when they needed help on homework and being me, I gave it to them because I felt the need to."
"Stupid right?" I continued as I felt my eyes watered, "Every friend I made ignored me the next school year and acted like we were never friends. I could never say hi first because I was so scared of what they would think of me. And I did the same to you. You deserve an apology too." At this point, I was crying like a dumbass, "I never said hi to you when we finally saw each other after two years and I was mad at you for not saying hi to me but at the same time, I was mad at myself for not saying hi. The only reason why I asked you to be friends with me again w-was... b-because I was desperate."
I knew he was disappointed in me and if I were him, I would be disappointed in me too. In fact, I had no right to be mad at Woojin for calling me weak because I was, I was just a coward who was hiding from the world. Afraid of getting hurt and not taking small risks. It wasn't like being myself would end my life, I was just too scared to even try.
"I'm sorry," I whispered while still looking down, sobbing like an idiot, "It's all my fault." But instead of being cold towards me, he pulled me into another hug, rubbing circles on my back to calm me down.
"It's okay," he hummed, "Don't cry, Hyerin. Don't cry." But I couldn't, "I'm sorry, just hate me from now on. You don't need to force yourself to be friends with me."
"Hey, hey, hey," he hushed as he pulled away and wiped my tears, "I want to be friends with you. I want to see you smile. I want to see you laugh. I want to see you be you. I want to make you happy so stop it with this nonsense. I want you to feel loved."
