Faithless (Fruits Basket fanfiction)

Faithless (chapter ten)

All right, all right, here's another one! (I still need to update the sequel on the other site, which hasn't been done since, like, November!)

I do not own Fruits Basket.

So now...ON TO THE STORY!!!

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Just as he was about to kiss me, he stepped away. The look in his eyes was something I hadn't seen before in him. Kyo stared at the ground for a minute, at the least. The sunset colors of orange, pink, and red accented his fox-colored hair. However, his eyes still seemed, I don't know, uneasy. I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but they looked reluctant or something along those lines.

"Kyo?"

Suddenly, Kyo looked up at me. Was he…glaring…at me? I think he was. His jaw was clenched once again and his fists were clenched as well.

"I can't –" Kyo sighed loudly. He turned his head away from me. "Just go. I can't be with you."

I gasped quietly. "Why not?" I said slowly.

By now, Kyo's breathing was ragged and heavy. It seemed as if he was trying to keep himself from losing it. He wasn't even making any eye contact with me – his eyes just flashed all around the room. It was as if he was trying to search for the right words to say.

Eventually, he spoke. "I don't want to be with you," he snarled. My eyes widened and my lips parted slightly.

"Wh-What?" I stuttered.

"You heard me. I don't want to be with you." Kyo emphasized each word. To keep myself from freaking out, I bit my lip – hard. I walked forward and took his left hand in mine. My other hand wrapped around his wrist. His white and red beads separated both of my hands. Suddenly, he pulled his arm away from me sharply. As he did this, the bracelet slipped off, too.

"Kyo!" I screamed. With a flash of light, he had transformed. After I looked back at him, I saw Kyo in his true form. The stench – the awful, disgusting stench that smelled worse than manure – filled my nostrils. The urge to vomit rose. I covered my mouth with my hands. Tears collected at the corners of my eyes.

"Go. Go now, Tohru," he said brusquely, his voice different. Once he glanced up at me, I could see his cat-like eyes defy what he was telling me. "You cause me trouble. Just go away; I don't want you." No…no…

Before he could see me crying, I raced out the front door and into the woods.

As I sat at a random tree, letting the shade the leaves and branches gave envelop me. Water rushed down my cheeks, burning at the spots where Akito hit me.

I just couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe that Kyo said that. A week ago, he had been kissing me so furiously. Maybe… Maybe I interpreted that the wrong way. At the time, it felt like he actually cared about me. It felt like I cared about him. Perhaps it was one-sided.

If he doesn't want me, then…I'm fine with that. Even as I thought it, I was fighting against it. But still…maybe it would be better this way. After all, he doesn't exactly want me around – especially since I just let him change forms.

However, even though I knew this, it still hurt. The way he said it was painful to hear, but that wasn't what made it hurt like it did. There was a pain in my heart – is this what it's like to be heartbroken? I guess so. His words weren't what hurt the most.

His eyes… They were glaring at me, but that was just a façade. I could see the heart behind those glowing red eyes. He was trying to make it seem like he truly wanted me to go. But I knew better; it was in his eyes. His lips told me he wanted me gone, but his eyes said, 'I want you here.'

And the fact that he was lying like that hurt me the most.

"So, did the cat dump 'Little Miss Pain in the Ass' already?" a voice eminated from behing a nearby tree. My gaze focused in on that tree as the figure revealed themselves.

-Point of View change: Kyo- (A/N: First POV change!)

"I don't want to be with you." That's what I said to her. I couldn't believe how cold I was towards Tohru. Damnit, why am I like this? Why do I have to be this damn cat? This life – it's hell for me. I wouldn't wish that upon anyone; I especially wouldn't wish it upon Tohru.

But I couldn't tell her that I wanted her to stay. Even if I'd hate to admit it, not wanting to hurt her wasn't the only reason I told her no. I wasn't just protecting her; I was protecting myself. Honestly, why was I so selfish?

She said yes that one night. On the night I first kissed her, she acted like she wanted me just as much as I wanted her. Then we said that nothing was happening. Why was I the first to say that? There are two reasons for that…

First: Yuki would've kicked my ass if he found out. You know, I'm surprised that he didn't after Tohru told him.

Second: Akito would've kicked her ass. That one would have been even worse. But Akito did it, anyway. That bitch. She's just as bad as Kagura, if not worse.

Yeah, I knew Akito was a girl – how could I not? In the moments I've seen her, it was pretty obvious. I mean, she has that feminine voice. Her voice is kind of creepy in a sense… Also, the fact that she was masquerading as a male just made it stranger. That wasn't all that gave her gender away. After all, she did have that girl's figure. Crap, that sounded wrong, didn't it? Not that I stare at Akito! Tohru's the one whom is easier to look at and has a more loving appearance – not that I stare at her, either! Oh, who am I kidding? I couldn't help looking at Tohru. She's just so radiant and beautiful to me…

I just needed to ask Shigure and then it was verified. It wasn't until today that I found out from Tohru that the head of my family had a goddamn crush on me. That just gave me more of a need to protect Tohru from Akito. Seriously, that bitch already gave Tohru those marks! Imagine what would happen if the two of use were actually…together. Hell, Akito would probably kill her. I cringed at the mere thought of it.

As time went on, as the moon rose into the sky, I could feel Tohru getting farther and farther away from me. My eyes briefly focused in on the clock on the blue wall; it was almost nine o'clock at night. Was she going to be gone all night? It was bad enough for her to have been gone for ten minutes, but she ran out over two hours ago!

Was it because of what I said? I knew my words felt like a stab to her heart; when she left me and Shigure alone in the hallway that night, it felt that way. It was hard to compose my face and my eyes to match my words. I failed, didn't I?

"Where's Miss Honda?" an annoying voice said behind me. I jumped.

"She ran off," I told him. Yuki huffed.

"You said something to her, didn't you? You said something that broke her heart. I know you did," he whispered. Slowly, I nodded. "Why?"

"I'll just hurt her. Even if she's just around me, she'll get hurt."

"And if she's in the woods, all alone, she'll be just fine?" That damn rat. I hate it when he's right. Shooting him a glare, I exited the house. As I ran in the direction I saw Tohru run, I felt Yuki behind me. Why the hell is he coming? "You're not the only one who cares about her, you stupid cat," he said. Damnit! Can he read my mind or something?

The two of us raced through the woods, dashing around the trees. Suddenly, we froze in our tracks.

Why is it that everyone that I care about most…why is it they always end up in these positions? Well, Tohru's the only one that I really care about, period. I…

I love her.

That makes the scene that's unfolding even harder for me to take in.

Tohru. Crap, crap, crap, crap. No, tell me that she didn't...

R/R/KR!