Custom Made ♛ Ha Sungwoon

여섯

I went to the blind date open minded. Who knows? Maybe I can really find someone who I'm interested in. But my optimism was shot down after he spoke his first few words. I don't even know if I was able to hide my frown all the way through the dinner.

Everything he said was just.. boring. Something I wouldn't be interested in, and he'd just go on, and on, and on. As if he never took breaks to breathe. I was more than glad after it ended, rushing into a taxi before reaching for my phone. Instantly. It was different from what I felt with Sungwoon.

I'm not in love with him,
Am I?

♛

Me: hey
Read 10:24pm
Me: hello?
Read 10:37pm
Me: Sungwoon?
Read 10:56pm
Me: hey stop making me panic. Are you okay? Where are u?
Read 11:13pm
Me: hello????
Read 11:34pm
Me: HA SUNGWOOOOON
Read 11:56pm
Me: I know you're there :(
Read 12:03am
Me: you'll reply eventually won't u? U're my custom made robot thing
Read 12:16am

Sungwoonie:
u're rlly gng to call me a robot? Now? Again?

Me: I knew that wud make u respondddd

Sungwoonie:
-_-

Me: is everything alright?

Sungwoonie:
Yeah. Everything's fine, sorry for being a really bad online boyfriend.

Me: Sungwoon, what's going on? And u're not a bad online boyfriend! I genuinely like talking to you, trust me!

Sungwoonie:
R u sure abt that?
Sungwoonie:
Never mind, ignore that. How was the date?

Me: yes, I'm sure.
Me: and the date was horrible, I wanted to go sleep throughout the whole thing
Me: food was shit too, thought at least I'd get free food but no

Sungwoonie:
AHAHHAHA

Me: bitch ass don't laugh at me

Sungwoonie:
I wish I cud take u out one day
Sungwoonie:
I'd give u flowers, chocolate, take you to a nice place. Everything. Anything
Sungwoonie:
For you, and only you.

Me: then why can't u?
Read 12:43am

♛

It only hit me after I pressed the send button. He couldn't. He just couldn't.

No matter how much I talk to him, the relationship we've created, and how many times I've thought of seeing him over and over again,

I'll never be able to see him.

Never.

And it scares me.

Because now,

I know I've fallen
for the first time

But I'll never be able
to see him.