when in college

eleven

I watched as the waves crashed against the shore only to be pulled right back. I distanced myself from the others quite a while ago but lost track of time. I was currently sitting on the sand by myself under the moonlight while the water washed over my feet. I looked over my shoulder to see everyone enjoying themselves, completely oblivious to the fact that I left. I grabbed a shell by my thigh and threw it into the water while letting out a huff of breath. I still can't get over the fact that I kissed Niall. What's even more surprising about the situation is that I completely forgot about it until now, but at this moment his soft lips against mine were all I could think about. I then wondered if he remembered the kiss. I mean sure, we were both drunk, but it's a possibility. I began making my way back up to the fire. When I got there, I took a look around I took a look around at the small group of people talking and laughing as I took a seat on the bench beside Zayn.

He had a beer in one hand with a blanket wrapped around his shoulders. I grabbed a corner of the blanket and wrapped it around my shoulder. Zayn smiled and wrapped an arm around my waist.

I suddenly felt very tired and rested my head on Zayn's shoulder and yawned. My eyes focused across the fire and what I saw didn't surprise me, but that didn't mean it didn't hurt. Niall had some red head on his lap and they were basically playing tonsil hockey, shoving their tongues down each other's throat.

"He might as well just sharpened fifty pencils to their finest point, bundled them together, put them in my mouth, and punch them repeatedly with all his might. Maybe he should put me on a bed of nails, strap me to the hood of his car, and drive as fast as he can over speed bumps during an earthquake. "

Okay, maybe that was being a little dramatic, but I couldn't help but think of that line from a book I was reading.It described exactly how I felt at the moment. I watched them in disappointed numbness with a clenched jaw. Maybe it was all the alcohol in my body at the moment, maybe it was because I was a lonely and confused teenage girl, or maybe it was the fact that I was simply a human being with emotions, but I knew it was time to go when my eyes glazed over. I can't let anyone see me so weak and vulnerable.

"Hey, hey." Zayn said as he gently grabbed my chin, pulled my face toward him, and looked me in the eye.

"That's not the Tiffany I know." Shit. Too late.

"I'm just tired." I lamely replied.

"Oh, but you can't go to sleep now." I looked at him confused before he whispered, "It's time for phase two of our plan to commence."

And Zayn's lips were on mine at the speed of light. I was surprised by the passion he put into the kiss but went along with it because it helped me forget about Niall and Zayn was quite a good kisser. I deepened the kiss and weaved my fingers through his hair as he gripped my hips. He playfully tugged at my bottom lip and I let out a small moan and that's when I heard a loud bang.

I opened my eyes and found the cooler of beer knocked over and Niall stomping towards me looking absolutely furious.

"I think it's time for me to take you back to campus." He growled as he towered over me.

"What? No. I don't think you're obligated to do that." I said in a sarcastic voice as I stood up.

He was way to close to me, invading my personal space. Not to mention everyone's eyes were on us and I hate being the center of attention.

"I brought you here so I'm bringing you home." Niall grabbed my wrist and basically dragged me up to his truck much to my annoyance.

He opened my door and basically pushed me into the car until I swatted his hands away and told him I could handle it myself.

Once I was in he slammed the door and got into the driver's seat.

"Zayn, really? I thought you were fucking over him. You came here with me." He spat as he started the truck and began to pull out.

I literally could not believe my ears. Is he trying to blame this on me?

"Oh, so you can go around kissing random girls all night but when I kiss Zayn you make a big deal about it?"

He growled and narrowed his eyes at me. "Zayn isn't who you think he is."

I scoffed. "Whatever. I know him way better than you and don't try to make this about something it's not. You know what you did is wrong so you're trying to change the subject."

"Okay, so what I kissed a few girls tonight. It's not like we're fucking dating or something."

For some unknown reason that hurt. I mean I know I haven't know Niall that long, and I know I feel something for him. Even if it's just physical attraction that's something. And it just doesn't seem like he is reciprocating the feeling.

I sighed and leaned my head against the window. I'm done arguing, it's pointless.

I realize we are almost to the dorms and a wave of relief washed over me.

I looked over at Niall who was concentrated on the road with his bottom lip between his teeth and furrowed brows. He looked much more calm than earlier.

Just as we were beginning to pull into the parking lot a thought popped into my head.

"Niall?" I mumbled.

"Yeah?"

"Do you... do you remember the last party at the beach?"

He glanced over at me as we pulled into a parking space. "Yes."

"Well... uhm this is going to sound weird, but do you remember k-kissing me?"

He looked over at me in confusion before narrowing his eyes.

"We never kissed. Why would we." he said sternly before looking back ahead with a clenched jaw.

My heart sunk. "O-oh. Must have been someone else." I mumbled as I got out of the car as fast as I could to save myself the embarrassment.

All I could think on my way back to the dorm was,

what a great fucking night.