I Will Never Diserve You

Chapter 4- Afraid

Jayson's pov

I come crashing down the stairs. Mama never EVER  yells my name unless I did something wrong but I know for a fact that I did nothing what so ever so I know im not the problem but when I see Artemiis standing pale faced I realize that they found out.

Peeta's pov

Artemis just stands there with a pale face. I'm alright with her having a boyfriend but not telling me kinda offends me. I know she loves me and Katniss and is really distant from people but I find it wrong she didnt say anything. The only people that knew were Jayson and Haymitch.

"Papa I know what Artemis did was wrong but dont punish her. She was afraid." says Jayson. He always tries to back up his sister and is always with her, well most of the time anyway. Me and Katniss look at Artemis. She looks up and starts rushing past me and Katniss looks startled. She runs towards the open arms of Jayson.

Artemis' pov

I run past Mama and Papa and run towards Jayson's open arms. I hug him tightly and whisper into his ear " Thanks for helping me. I'm gonna be in my room. You know how to get in without Mama noticing so meet me inside there in 5." I hug him tightly again and tell him in his ear "Love you" and walk towards my room.  Once im in a crash onto the floor crying my heart out. I get up suddenly and punch the wall leaving a dent. I dont even feel my hand screaming in pain. All I can think of is how afraid I am of losing him.

Katniss' pov

I know Artemis told Jayson something but I dont know what. I look at Peeta and give him a glance saying Talk to her. He just nods, streches and walks toward her room.

"Jayson go to your room." He just nods and turns towards his room. I go with Peeta toward Art's roo  and she her in a corner of her room, sobbing, her right fist blood trickling down her hand and a dent in the wall next to her. I run up to her and hug her while Peeta sits and conforts her. Sadly, it doesnt work because when she is like this only Jayson, her twin, can confort her.

Once she stops shacking I realise that this is the first time she actually cries or shows any emotions. I then look at the dent in the wall and realise that shes stronger than I thought. Not just physically nbut mentally and emotionally too.

" Mama, Papa, like Jayson said I was afraid of telling you." she says and draws out a shaky breathe. "Hunny why are ypu afraid?" I ask because I really want to know why would she be afraid. " She's afraid of telling anyone because she's afraid of losing him" I hear Jayson say.