Requited LOVE

Chapter 8

Lillian's POV

Daddy wanted to talk to me. I knew he wouldn't want me if I became who I wanted. The tears coming to my eyes, I couldn't stop. 

"I'm sorry, Leif. I knew you wouldn't want me. I'll leave you to spend time with your friends." I jumped off his lap.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa! Who said I wouldn't want you? I never said that. Big girl Lillian needs to give me permission to change your diaper and give you baths. I did it, only because there was no one else."

"You don't mind caring for me?"

"In 100% honesty, I thought I would hate it. I love it. You need me, I need you."

"My little age doesn't bother you?"

"I'm shocked more than anything. You need to be big girl just so you can ask your questions."

"Yes, I forgot, daddy." I had a whole list in my mind.

"Okay, do you want to walk down?"

"Yes, thank you." Daddy stood me up. 

"Pumpkin, you walk down, no running. I've started a list of rules. We'll go over them, Sunday, that way we're both 100% that we want this." I nodded slowly walking down.

Going into the living room where David and Azalea were, I sat on the couch. Both realized I wasn't in little space and joined me. "Okay, very open ended question. What's it like? Having someone care for you all the time, it must get boring. I've enjoyed my time as a baby, but all the time?"

"Your right very open ended, I greatly appreciate it. Daddy takes my stress away, or at least tries to, we're in the middle of some things right now. I've been kidnapped, but daddy got me back over night. Also, my parents have been arrested, other people have taken over the business targeting me. Daddy doesn't allow me to think about it."

"Mommy is a police woman. I met her through Azalea's case. She gets called away a lot. I still live with my parents, they don't like me being a little. They approve of Clair though. My parents think I'm with Clair now. She had to work this morning. I'm older so I'm able to shower myself, cook and clean, but big decisions need made by mommy. That releases me from the stress of wrong 

"How do you choose your age?"

"Your body basically chooses it for you. What age do you want to be? What age is the most relaxing, least amount of stress? That is generally found by what age you immediately drop to. Me I'm 2. Meaning sometimes I need diapers. My speech gets more difficult to understand and I'm very clingy."

"I'm 8 to 10. I can care for myself, but can't be trusted to not do anything stupid. Therefore, most of the time someone is with me. The nice thing about my age is it doesn't take a lot to be the adult if need be. I do understand what's going on. Most babies do lose the capability of understanding and organization."

"Yes, I try to be my age in school, but to many things stressing me out has occurred. Almost everyday in school, I've been two or younger. I remember sitting in class trying to figure out what they're talking about. I didn't understand a word. I was in Spanish, I speak it fluently."

"Is there a better age?"

"Whatever makes you feel the best."

"Do you have jobs?"

"I do not, don't plan to either."

"I currently don't. I'm going to get a computer science degree and hopefully get into catching computer crimes. I do sometimes put in security systems or upgrade computers now. Depends on who it is if I get paid."