schiz•o•phre•ni•a
a long-term mental disorder of a type of involving a breakdown in the relation between thought, emotion, and behavior, leading to faulty perception, inappropriate actions and feelings, withdrawal from reality and personal relations...
"hello jimin how are you feeling today?" my therapist asked as she continued to take notes in her little book.
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"um well i think i'm doing pretty good." i started rubbing my hands together.
she couldn't find out about my cutting or else she would keep a closer eye on me, making me visit this stupid place everyday. but it does make me feel relaxed in a way, being here.
"i heard that you were dancing yesterday at the freshman party how were you feeling yesterday?" she stared deeply in my eyes.
actually i couldn't really remember the events that took place yesterday. but of that mysterious girl who basically keeps running into me and i don't know why.
"where did you hear that i was dancing at a party from?" i furrowed my eyebrows as she took notes.
"don't worry about it i'm asking you jimin. did you enjoy yourself?" i quickly answered.
"yes i did enjoy myself i guess."
"so have you still been dreaming about jin?" she asked as she tapped her pen. she was now directing her attention towards me as i played with my fingers.
"hey jimin! look what you did to me! now you are fat i hate you for killing me. i've always hated you with your dumb disorder. your crazy your a freak!"
"ummm.."
"leave me alone jin!"
"uhh..."
"no your a stupid crazy freak. no one will ever like you!"
"jimin?" my therapist started writing something down.
"this is why i drowned you!" i yelled at the mirror.
"NO I HAVE NOT BEEN THINKING ABOUT JIN!" i slammed the table as i stood up. my breathing was irregular and my heart rate was increasing. i quietly sat down as my therapist didn't say anything.
"well won't you look at the time? it's already an hour of your session. and jimin?" my therapist looked into my soul giving me a bad feeling.
"yes?" i answered as i put my bag on.
"take your paranoia pills twice a day now." she came over to give me a hug.
"i just don't want you to do the same thing you did before when you started getting paranoid with jin. with him popping up places, even his head being replaced by anyone. do you hear me? twice a day for your xanax pills! (AN~ these are pills for his paranoia)" she pulled me into a tighter hug as she patted my back.
"okay doc gotcha." i rushed out of her office.
"oh yeah and classes start tomorrow right? take all of your pills ! remember every day, twice for your xanax!" she yelled as i rushed to my car.
it was time for me to go get something to eat because I felt my stomach rupter with hunger. every time i go back to that place with that stupid therapist, i think that she's out to get me. i have no idea why but she's just really strange but i have to go so my parents won't get suspicious.
the car was now blasting of "coffee" by miguel (AN~ i actually didn't know he listens to trey songz, miguel, usher,etc ; a lot of r&b) i finally pulled up to "in and out burger" because it was the closest place i could think of.
as i parked my car, opened the door to in and out burger i noticed that i bumped into someone. i was too busy rushing into the food place without noticing someone coming out. i picked my head up to see that girl last night from the party.
angelique is her name right?
"oh im so sorry angelique i didn't see you there." i smiled because she was already staring at me but then she quickly look at her feet. why does she do that every time she sees me?
"oh hi j, it's okay." i smirked at the name j because i actually was trying to keep a low profile with my name you know?
jin's face is popping up again.
"well im going to go eat , excuse me." i said as she quickly stopped me before i could get into the store.
i had to go away before i was going to do something i regret. jin was now laughing i couldn't even see her face anymore it was totally replaced by him.
"are you okay from the other day?" i could see her head starting to tilt down towards my hand as i quickly placed them behind my back.
"yeah can i go now ? i have to go get some food" she was getting annoying because she was blocking me from entering from nathan's.
"you wish you could kill me you fat piece of trash!" jin started laughing as i grabbed his hand.
"listen jin! here we go again! do you want me to do what i did before? trust me, if you were here i'll do it again." i angrily whispered as my hand clenched around his wrist.
"j! please stop your hurting me." i heard angelique say.
his face went away, and i now was staring at angelique's wrist. i read her face and i could tell that she was overwhelmed by fear. i quickly let her hand go as i stormed out of the food place.
i suddenly lost my appetite.
i could have sworn that was jin.
"j?" she shouted as i was more focused on the people who witnessed that. some people began to ask her questions so i took this as a chance to leave. and that's exactly what i did.
angelique
the tears began to fall down my eyes as i held my wrist. my wrist was currently hurting from what j just did. is there something wrong with me?
why did he just do that?
and who is jin?
i also noticed his arm...he himself cuts too?
"excuse me miss are you okay?" a voice asked behind me.
yeah, this story about to get real crazy!!
what do you guys think angelique should do?
what do you think his next moves are going to be? (jimin's)
