How did I survive being an engineering freshman? Beats me.
Now here I am in the next chapter of my college life. Am I ready to be a sophomore? The answer to that question, I still do not know. All I know is that I have to try harder, be better and be happier.
No, just happy is enough. The previous year was filled with many difficult challenges and fresh experience. Also, a painful bliss. Paradoxical?
This semester, I should expect everything to be in the next level. Including the misery.
My seniors might be able to cut me some slack this time. I'd been a diligent freshman, not to mention the honor that I gave them for being the second best Moon of the campus.
Bragging rights for me as I started turning people's heads when I walk around. Until now, I still can't believe all those things happened to me.
Campus Moon 2016 Competition Night.
"Whoever wins tonight doesn't matter...." Pha shouting to me.
Yes, he is shouting because there's no other way I can hear his voice. It's only a matter of seconds before the host announces who the winner of the competition is.
Breaths are held. The spotlights. Plangent silence. Heartbeats racing. Emptiness.
The two of us stand in the middle of the stage in front of everyone. I look at his face, and I see nothing. No expression at all. I don't know if what he said to me last night was true, or he's just not excited about any of this.
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Me? I don't feel bad at all if I don't win. In fact, I want him to win. He doesn't know that. I couldn't tell him.
"We'll still be the same jerks to one another." he adds before the host calls his name.
Feels good to hear that.
But why do I feel like he's acting strange?
Especially right after what happened last night? Does he know?
I realize that after tonight, we won't be spending time together anymore. That thought squeezed my heart a bit.
And I was right.
After that night, we rarely saw each other. Almost never.
Shit, I miss that tall bastard.
Rehearsal was the best part of my day during the competition period. Spending time with other candidates was fun. With Pha, it was more thrilling. No matter how difficult my day was, when he entered the picture, it all became easier. Less stressful. Though he didn't bat an eye.
