Afternoon Philosophies || Poetry

Acting away

I'm acting

Every Laugh, Every smile

It's an act I've convinced myself of

I don't want to be like this

But I can't help it

Can you help me

Please help me

I'm so lonely

Please

I pretend I can't feel it

I pretend that I'm happy

I fake it so much that eventually I believe it

But the pain is still there

Biting into my fragile heart

My empty heart

I can try and cover it up

Eventually, it will explode

Eventually, my mind will burn

Please be with me then

Help me then

I don't know who you are or who you will be

But I know when I meet you

I will love you and that hole will be filled

I am hopeful 

I am praying

I am praying for you 

When I implode

Be there for me