MacFarlane X Glory (4): If I Had You

Prologue

Seth's POV

Great, another sleepless night! I thought to myself as I was trying to sleep. It's been 4 months since Oliver, me and Glory's son has been born. I went to his room, calmed him down by singing softly until he fell asleep. Once that was over, I kissed him and went back to my room.

"I told you parenting wouldn't be easy." Glory giggled.

"You've been saying that since 4 months ago." I laughed.

"Well, it's true." She jabbed my shoulder gently. The past 9 months have been good and bad for us, as we've been going through a lot. One of them was that we got married on our 3 year anniversary. Then, my depression was getting worse but after few months, it went away. Now, it's been 1 year since I relapsed.

"Glory, can I ask you something?" I said, putting my hand on her shoulder.

"That's what friends are for. Unless they're betraying backstabbing jerks!" She exclaimed. I didn't quite understand what she was talking about but I decided it was best not to talk about it.

"Okay." I simply answered, unsure what to say now at this point.

Later that night, I tried going back to sleep. I kept on staring at the ceiling until my eyes became heavy. Once that was over, I slept peacefully with Glory smiling at me.

"Love you, my sweet princess." I whispered, kissing her hand.

"Love you too, my Prince Charming." She mumbled.

The next day, I got up and noticed the time was 11:56. I ran to the bathroom to do my hair and get my contacts on. Once that was over, I got dressed and found Glory feeding Oliver. I sat down and started eating my chocolate chip pancakes. Jesus Christ, I just died inside. I thought to myself, smiling at how good it is.

Later that day, I went upstairs to my room and locked the door. I started crying again for what seemed like the thousand time, thinking my life is getting worse than it is. I don't work as much as I used to, as I only go for the table reads and voices. Just why the hell can't my life be the same as it used to be. I grabbed a lighter from my pocket and began burning my arm, while sobbing. After that, I grabbed a few bandages and placed them onto my burn marks, going to sleep. I continued crying but I tried not to.

Glory's POV

I put Oliver down for a nap, as I was about to read when I heard crying. Dear god, no! I thought to myself, about to run but quickly realized I should be quiet. I went to the end of the hall, knocking on the door, checking to see if Seth is okay. I listened to his cries, thinking what the hell just happened.

"Seth, are you okay?" I asked him, hoping he'll unlock the door.

"Just a minute!" He shouted, unlocking it, then opening for me. I got in and sat next to him.

"Why was there crying?" I said, wondering if something bad happened.

"I was rewatching The Sound of Music. Gets me every time." He explained.

"I don't hear the movie playing." I looked around.

"You missed it." He reminded me, kissing my hand.

"I know why you were crying." I told him, hoping he'll answer what was really going on.

"You're lying!" He exclaimed. I shushed him, letting him know that Oliver is sleeping.

"You know it's true!" I screamed.

"That I'm crazy!" He shouted, tears forming in his eyes.

"Seth, you're not." I assured him, placing a hand on his shoulder.

"Yes I am! What part didn't you hear!" He shouted, about to start crying. I knew I shouldn't do this. I thought.

"None. But look, Seth. Everything is going to be okay." I said, as he ended up sobbing.

"You keep saying that and it's making everything worse." He sobbed, trying to get away but I stopped him.

"Seth, you don't mean it." I hugged his arm, feeling something.

"I do. My life is already as bad as it is." He continued crying.

"I wish I could help."

"There's nothing you can do."

I didn't know what to say at this point because I think Seth might've self inflicted himself but I wasn't sure if he did or not. I can't believe he did this to himself and I mean seriously doing it. 2 years ago, he almost did that but I stopped him and we got into a fight. He called me a little bitch after that and I was even more angry at him.

"I didn't mean it." He wiped his tears, showing me his arm.

"What?" I said, pretending not to know.

"I didn't mean to burn myself. I was just so depressed that I was having a shitty life lately." He admitted, taking off the bandage.

"How can you admit to something like this?" I asked.

"Remember how you said that we have to tell each other everything and I mean everything?" He said.

"Yeah, I already knew but I didn't want to get you more upset than you normally are." I told him. He showed me more burn marks that were scars.

"I burned myself for the 8th time this month but now I stopped because I couldn't hurt you anymore."

"How long has this been going for?"

"Since mid July."

"You told anyone about this?"

"Not until today."

I was at a loss for words, now unsure what is going on. I felt tears from my eyes, as my heart started pounding and I could feel my hands shaking.

"You need to tell your therapist this." I pulled him for a hug.

"I'm not going to do that." He refused.

"Why not?" I crossed my arms.

"Because I don't want anyone to find out why I was depressed." He sighed.

"They'll eventually know what's going on." I reminded him.

"I don't care." He ran out, avoiding me.

A/N: I decided to do the 4th book already since I'm terrible at waiting until November 24th. Anyways, I want to focus on this book (mostly, if not) Seth's depression. I liked the direction it was going on in the last book since it felt real. If you don't want me to continue it, that's fine with me. I won't make it depressing and move on. Thanks for reading! Please review!