The Twenty-five year old FBI Agent, Lauren Jauregui looked down at the sketch book in her hands and tried to fight back the tears that were coming, she flipped to the last page of the book and was surprised to find an envelope taped to the back, her name written on the front. She carefully pulled it free from the tape and opened it, once again fighting back tears at seeing Y/N's familiar handwriting.
Dear Lauren,
If you are reading this it is because I have died, and if I am dead that means you are still blaming yourself for it, stop. Unless you shot me because you were annoyed with me then you didn't cause this and it is not your fault, I need you to forgive yourself because you can't do what I'm about to ask you to do if you don't forgive yourself.
Four years ago I had a little girl, her name is Madeleine-Grace, I know you lost your little girl and maybe I'm being selfish for asking you this but I see the love and caring in your eyes when you look at kids, please take care of my baby for me, she is my world, I know you'll love her like I do. I have started a trust fund to pay for her school and my life insurance went straight into there, there is around $300,000.00, please use it if she needs anything or she wants to do sports or some other activity. I know you'll see how special she is, she's so smart and talented, she loves the piano.
All of her important information is with her nanny whom she is staying with, only my sister knows about her the rest of my family doesn't know, I didn't want them to treat her badly because I had her out of wedlock when I was young, if she wants to meet them eventually I would be okay with that. I know it is a huge thing to ask and I wouldn't have if it wasn't important to me but I know you would never let anything happen to her, please protect my baby. Let her know that I love her so much and I'm always watching over her, but also make sure she knows it's okay to move on, she's allowed to have someone else fill the mother role in her life.
Now Ally since I know you've gotten a hold of this letter by now please be there for my little girl, be an aunty for her, be someone she can trust. Please help her with her homework, if she's anything like me then she's going to suck at science and math, maybe take her to church every once in awhile. Please remember how much I love you and try not to cry over me, remember the happy times and make sure Lauren doesn't beat herself up over this.
Dinah, I'm expecting you to be the scary Aunt, you'd better scare off any boys that try to get near my little girl, teach her how to laugh and how to protect herself, but don't let her live in fear, make sure she's happy. Even though we drove each other crazy know that you were like a sister to me and that I love you, keep yourself out of danger and take care of yourself.
Mani, please help her with her homework, make sure Dinah doesn't bug her too much and that Lauren isn't too over protective, I know you'll be a great aunt to her just like you were a great friend to me, love you Mani, take care of yourself and stand up to Dinah every once in awhile.
Jonah, you're on grandfather duty, you took care of me the whole time I was at Quantico from the very first moment you were like a father to me. Look after my baby, tell her all of your stories, make sure she reads often and asks lots of questions about the world around her. Please love her for me, they always said it takes a village to raise a child, I need you to take care of that village, thank you for everything you did for me, and for not telling them what the tattoo was, I love you.
Henry, I need you to be the person who keeps Gracie down to earth, help her to laugh at herself when things go bad, help her to see the good in the world that you see, please help everyone to smile and keep laughing. Keep the joy in their lives Henry, help them to find the little pieces of sunshine in an otherwise dark world, keep reminding them that none of them are alone.
To my replacement, I don't know who you are but welcome to the family, you'll find everyone a bit overwhelming at first but you will grow to love them, Lauren can be grumpy but you won't meet a woman with a better heart. Dinah can be annoying and goofy but she's a sweetheart deep down, Mani is shy and a little bit awkward but she's a genius and she cares deeply about her family. They can be long but always listen to Jonah's stories they're full of life lessons and be patient with Henry and you'll find that he's one of the happiest people you'll ever meet. As for Ally, don't judge her based on how she looks she's the sweetest person alive, she may not like you at first but she'll warm up eventually just don't give up on her and Ally play nice, make sure you give them a chance.
Now Lauren I want to say thank you for what you're about to do for me, it means the world to me, please love her like I do, I know she's not Gemma and I don't expect or want her to be a replacement but I know you'll do your best with her. I don't know how I died but please know that I'll always be your Y/NN, please don't spend time blaming yourself, move on with your life and be happy, find someone who makes you happy, show my little girl what a family looks like, she's never had that, I left a few more notes in a large file at home you'll find it in my desk drawer. Until then please know you meant the world to me and that I would gladly do everything over again, I wouldn't change a thing. Please be the mommy my little girl never had, while you're taking care of my little girl I'll make sure yours is okay, I'll give her a hug for you and remind them how much you love them.
With all my love,
Y/N L/N
