The Broken Letter

2015 (2)

Epilogue : The rest of the letter. I know it is a quick update. Firstly I thought Im gonna write this story and make it as sad as possible but then I cannot do it anymore because I am totally move on. So I dont want to remember all the pains and heartbreaks. Actually I dont want to update this story after Im completely over him but then why not just finish it so I dont own any of you the rest of the story. It's 2017 and Im planning on live my life happily, as happy as possible. And I am going to be busy as I will enter my degree soon so yeah. This is the end. Thanks for reading ! Wishing yalls a great future ahead, yeah ? 

WARNING : THIS IS THE 2015 ME WRITING SO IT DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING NOW. I wish him hell, the same hell I had gone through. 

If youre reading this letter now, trust me my pain is not fully covered, yet. I still cried because of him. The day before SPM, I cried in the toilet beside the library because I didn't get any goodluck wishes from him. It's because my own ego though, why did I backfire him that day? Blame my egomaniac. Blame my silly gesture over and over. But thats okay, I also love it when I feel like I win when I scold him that day.

He did ws me after we broke up, once, to ask me how am I doing and asked me study well so that I can fly to study abroad he knows that is my dream.

If you're reading this letter, probably he's in University now, attending a lecture or whatsoever. Eh okay Im sorry he's in Xxxxxxxxxxz now for semester holiday. God, I still know things about him when he didn't even care to bother about mine. My life here, stuck with bloody SPM, when I really need him by my side, need supports from him like what I gave him during the old days back in 2013. His old, SPM days~

If youre reading this letter, believe me his sweet tweets with Exxx are still there in his timeline. Yeah, I stalked him, sorry for not moving on. He tagged Exxx's twitter at the sweet quotes. Eg ; "distance is nothing when two hearts are loyal to each other,". I know, it is a real " Wth, man. He didn't even know what is the true meaning of loyal." Yeah you can curse him for that. And there are a lot of Exxx's pictures in his twitter. He uploaded them. Can you feel me? It hurts like hell, man! OMG, im getting crazier :P

If youre reading this letter, dont worry because im okay. He did sent me a simple goodluck wish tho. (( After I kinda asked him to do.)) There goes my sad love story. Right now I am trying to forget everything that happened between me and him. I did not sure if I can love anyone else like I love him before. There are many people who is trying to approach me but I found no one like him. No one. 

Have luck in love, Aina. Dont trust anyone in this world, especially boys. But men, can.

I am neglecting my modemath, doing this hahaha. If youre reading this letter in 2015, I already happy with my handsome husband and cheeky cute little children....TRUST ME !!!

Funny how a seventeen year-old had gone through a real heartbreak, so soon. She just wants a love, some attention. Now she's a month away from becoming a 20 year old lady. And that feeling, is still there. Not always, but sometimes when the emotions kick in. Trauma. 

She's not strong. She is as weak as a human can be, but she had no choice. Fake a smile, and then she's good to go. Her tears? Only bathroom walls know. 

She hopes, one day there will be a guy who can love her unconditionally. Especially her dark sides, her unbearable flaws, not just because of her face. God knows, only God knows her destiny that is remained a secret, still. 

But, one thing she constantly prayed for- she doesnt want to meet a douchebag.

Not again. 

-johanne, 2/12/2017