The Broken Letter

2011 (3)

And, it is not about ' just him'.

One of my seniors also ( which happens to be his batchmate ) also plays a vital role during this year.

How will you react when you arrive at your class from your dorm every single morning, there will be a piece of paper on your table? No, not letter. But a drawing. An anime drawing. The subjects are different everytime, sometimes it can be a drawing of people, boys, girls, cats.......thats what I manage to remember. 

And, 

What will you feel when your messy table is happen to be really neat every single morning? And sometimes there will be some snacks inside your table? Will you eat them? 

For me, I threw the animes away, and I gave the food to others. Didnt even take a single bite.

..........is this some kind of magic?

No.

There is, a boy, who did this. And yeah, not 'him'.

He really knows how to draw, and Im kinda amaze with his talents. I had to admit, his anime drawings are so pretty ! There will always be a footnote below his drawings. Quotes, or his words himself. But I sent all his animes to the dustbin, just because. 

Its scary sometimes, when people you didnt recognize sent those to you, you dont know whether he has a good attention of not..........and and 13 years old girl knows nothing, told ya. When people ask her to throw them away, she just follow the instructions given. Eventhough, sayangnya lukisan.................................

A drawer put a great effort to draw those but I simply throw em away.

Nevermind, at least I have nothing to do with him. If I save his drawings, people will have a different thought about me. 

Thats me, always care about what people thought of me. Sheesh. 

( Time walks fast, and lastly I became his friend. On facebook. Haha. Kinda. )

I really really appreciate his efforts to draw those, but then I ask him to stop sending them. It feels uncomfortable, and it feels wasted, because I had to throw it away every morning. Whats point of drawing? when they will go to not more than just dustbins? 

And then, he stops. No more animes, no more a piece of paper. And no more exciteness to know what is the subject of his drawing today, everyday.

But, guess what?

I manage to keep his last drawing. He drew a kpop figure, he just wants to mock me, I guess. The footnote ; " wanna learn how to draw? poke me." Again,refers to  facebook. 

And, no more drawings come after that.

Kpoppers, stalker, hantu dota, pokewar. Several terms are there to define the "friendship".

Ah, friendzone is real.

Hi there, old buddy. 

1:01 AM

johanne

( next part will continue with the letter :) )