changed

chap 4

Songs for this chapter:

Hurt – Christina Aguilera

Half a heart – one direction

When I open the door I quickly hear my mom’s voice yelling.

“Where have you been young lady? You scared the hell out of me. I told you not to leave the house and you disobeyed me like always. You could at least have called me telling you were out. But here I am calling you without any answer”

“I’m sorry” I really don’t wanna fight, I don’t have the courage to, I just want to go to my room and sleep.

“You should be! Oh girl you are so grounded!” she tells me with a loud voice.

“No mom, please! I’m old enough to be grounded!” I yell at her without knowing.

She suddenly crosses her arms and puckers her eyebrows.

“Listen to me very well! You are a young girl underage. As long as you are under 18 you are my responsibility. So now go to your room, you are grounded and that’s it I won’t discuss this subject anymore” she tells me with a low voice. I can’t stand the way she talks to me, she doesn’t understand me.

“Mom! I was at Niall’s house with Louis and Eleanor! It’s not that far away. I met them at the party yesterday and they came by, we all went together to his house to have fun. Mom they are one direction’s members!! I am safe with them. Please don’t punish me!” I start crying “I know I should have called you, but I was too excited to hang out with my celebrities so I forgot. I’m sorry”

“I said end of discussion. To your room” she points her finger in the direction of my room.

“You’re insensitive!” I yell at her and go running to my bedroom. I lock the door and lay on my bed crying hard.

I am so stupid. Why did I talk to him about the kiss? I just couldn’t take it anymore, he was my first kiss. He meant so much to me and he still does, but I am nothing to him just another random girl. I thought I meant something to him but I couldn’t be that far from right. I mean, why would he even care about me? We just met few days ago and he doesn’t know anything about me, unlike me, who I’ve known him since they first shined out, I followed him, screamed over him, got crazy over his pictures, died when I saw him on television, gave him every minute of my life when he didn’t know I existed. Though he changed my life in so many ways, by ‘he’ I mean all 5 of them, but right now I can’t think in nobody but Niall. When I used to come back home sad because of a fight at school, just one look at his picture or just listening to one of their songs and here I was happy with a little proud smile on my face.

That kiss! That Kiss, is just unmissable, I could never forget it, it was magical, wonderful… and through my tears of pain and hurt, a small smile appears on my face just by the memory of being kissed by him. But then the memory of him considering that kiss just ‘a kiss’ breaks me down again.

Hours later, when it’s dark outside I decide to go to sleep. Not having the energy to put my pajamas on I sleep with my clothes.

I wake up Sunday morning with my mom knocking on my door. I get out of bed and open it.

“Dress up we are going out”

“Where?”

“My friend at work invited us to lunch and it’s 10am so dress up quickly”

“I don’t want to go, I’m not in the mood”

“I’m not working on your mood. I said dress up nice and if you don’t you’ll go with me with those clothes and I’m pretty sure you don’t want to, so c’mon, in 30 minutes I want you ready”