Save Me -> Kim Taehyung

Chapter 20: Jealousy and Misunderstandings

Namjoon looks at me puzzled, but follows as I drag him up stairs to my room. I open my bedroom door and pull him inside. I close the door again and let his go of his wrist to cross my arms.

"What did I do this time," he asks. "Wanna tell me why you yelled at Taehyung and tried to blame my suicide attempt on him," I ask. "Wait, how do you know about that," he asks, obviously shocked. "Jae and the guys were worried about me and I asked them to come over so I could explain. Taehyung told them about what happened while I was out cold and accidentally let your disagreement with him slip," I say.

Namjoon sighs and sits on the bed, looking at the ground. "Namjoon you know how I feel when you yell at the others! And blaming him for what happened?! Why would you ever think he would do anything to hurt me in any way," I ask. "Sis, I am so sorry," he apologizes," I really am." "Don't apologize to me. I'm not the one that got accused of being the reason for their significant other's hospitalization," I say.

He continues to look at the ground and I take a few deep breaths. I didn't yell at him, but I made sure that he knew how upset I was and I know he feels bad about it. I walk over to him and crouch down infront of him. I rest my hand on the side of his arm and rub it.

"I'm sorry, but you know how I feel about that. Especially because he was already taking it really bad. Maybe even worse than you," I say. "What do you mean," he asks. "Let's just say that we all have our fears and someday, they may almost become reality," I say and a wave sadness washes over me as I remember the look on Taehyung's face as he told me how he felt when he was waiting to know if I was alright. "Oh." "Yeah. So can you promise me something," I ask. He nods. "Don't yell at the others any more," I say. "I'll try, but so-." "Jebal Joonie! For me," I plead. "Alright. For you princess," Namjoon says.

My face lights up a little. "Jinja?!" "Ne princess," he answers. I tackle him in a hug. "Kamsamnida Joonie!" "You're welcome. Saragnhae," he says. "Nado saranghae oppa," I say.

Suddenly the door opens and reveals Jimin. "Gwenchana? I heard yelling," he says. "We're fine ChimChim," I tell him still holding onto Namjoon," I just got excited." He chuckles and smiles at me. "That explains why you look so happy. It's so cute," he teases. I blush and hide my face in my brother's chest.

"Chim~," I say," Stop~." He laughs again. "I'll let you finish talking to Namjoon hyung," he says and turns to go. I remember what Taehyung had said about asking Jimin what was going on and call after Jimin.

"Actually, I need to ask you something." "Oh, okay pumpkin. I'll just wait outside for you two to finish," he replies and leaves. "I'll go now," Namjoon says. "Arrasso oppa, but make sure you apologize to Tae please. It really did upset him, even if he won't admit it," I say. He nods and leaves as Jimin walks in, closing the door behind him. He sits next to me on the bed and I turn to face him.

"What's up pumpkin," he asks," You said you wanted to ask me something." "Mhm." "Okay. What is it," he asks. "I was just wondering- I mean, when Jae said that Tae and I are cute together, you two gave each other a wierd look. I was just wondering, am I missing something," I ask. "Oh," he says.

He looks down at his hands. "I asked Tae, but he said to ask you because it wasn't his secret to tell," I explain. Jimin nods and look back at me. "Are you sure you wanna know," he asks. This is making me nervous, but I do want to know so I nod yes.

"I like you," he says calmly. "I like you too, Jiminie. You're my bestfriend," I reply. He looks at me and reads my expression as if he were expecting a different reaction.

"Ignorance is bliss," he mutters as he shakes his head. "Oppa, what are you talking about," I ask. "I like you, Y/N, but in different way. A way that I know you don't feel for me," he says. Oh, now I get it. He's confessing.

"But. . . why Jimin? Why me? Of all girls," I ask. "Because you're different from other girls. You don't just use us for our popularity or our looks. You always keep us in line and try to take care of us. There's just something special about you and I can't help but love you," he tells me.

"Why didn't you ever tell me," I ask. "Because you had feelings for Taehyung. You always did, even if you didn't realize it. I knew he felt the same for you, so I stepped back. I didn't want to make you choose between your two bestfriends. But now that you're with him, it just makes it all harder. I'm happy for you because I know how badly Kai hurt you and I'm glad that you finally opened up again. I love seeing you be happy, I just. . . I wish you were happy with me," he says.

"I try not to be Y/N, but when I see you with him I get jealous. The way you look at him, talk to him, act with him. I wish it were me. I know I shouldn't feel like this and I should just be happy for you two. You're my bestfriends, but I can't help it. I want to be the one to wake up with you every morning and makes you smile. To be the one that holds you and makes you feel better when you are sad or upset. To be the one that says "I love you" everyday and hear you say it back so that I know you feel the same for me," he says and looks me in the eyes.

I know he means it, I can hear it in his voice and see it in his eyes, but I love Taehyung. I only see Jimin as a very close friend. I put my hand on his shoulder. "Jimin~." I don't know what's to do or say and nervously bite my lower lip. Jimin looks at my lips and then my eyes and seems to be trying to decide what to do. Before I can process what is about to happen his lips crash onto mine.

I sit there frozen in shock when I hear the door open and see Taehyung standing in the doorway. I push Jimin away, but Taehyung is already gone. "Jimin! Why'd you do that," I ask, panicked. "I'm sorry! I shouldn't have done that! I'm so sorry," he apologizes. "We'll talk about this later," I say. He nods and I run out the door.

I go to Taehyung's room, but he isn't there. I go to his attached bathroom, but still nothing. I rush downstairs to the kitchen. Nothing. I go to the living room and see everyone but Jimin and Taehyung.

"Dammit," I say and start breaking down. A few tears fall and I notice that the guys are all looking at me. "Cupcake! What's wrong," Jin asks and runs up to hug me. "Oppa, I need to find Taehyung," I say and cry into his chest.

Jin hugs and strokes my hair. "My poor baby! What happened?" "Jimin told me he liked me, then he kissed me and Taehyung saw," I sob. "You didn't kiss back did you," Jin asks. "Ani. Of course not. I love Taehyung and Jimin apologized already, but I can't find Taehyung anywhere," I say," I just want to tell him what actually happened."

I cry a little more and the others think for a moment. "Check the park," Yoongi says. "The park?" "Yeah, the one he took you to for your first date," he says. "Okay."

I wipe my tears and pull away from Jin. "I'll be back when I find him," I say. I look at Namjoon, silently reminding him of his promise. He nods and I take it as my cue to leave. I hurry to the door, slip on my shoes, and leave the house.