Feathers (a Phanfiction)

Chapter 4: Monster

*cough cough* *taps mic* anyone still here?? HELLO!! Y'all, I know. It's been since January since I updated. I had said in my last update that I had already finished chapter 4 and it'd be up soon. Well, what happened was.. uhhh... I lost that chapter bc I had it written in on a few pieces of paper and I tried rewriting it many times but I just could not get the same mood out of my writing that I had in my original writing of it. I lost all my motivation but I'M BACK! Also this is v short bc I just want to get over it bc it is very much annoying me that it is not as good as the original, sorryyyy

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   Anger surges through my veins, throughout my brain, and into my heart. I can feel it in my chest. My fists are flushed with red from hitting the boy. I walk at a fast pace out of the brick building, and then begin running to my truck. I will not let this overcome me. 

   It wants to come out, it wants to surface again. Just like it was just a couple years before. I can't fucking let it, I promised her. I can't go back being like him.

   I quickly unlock my truck's door and get in. I enter the key into the ignition, music suddenly came blasting from the speakers. I turn it up louder. I need to ignore myself. Ignore my past. It won't fucking happen it again. I hate who I am, I hate that I have his disgusting DNA. I would go through every cell in my body and pick out the millions upon millions of DNA strands that came from him. He made me like this, against my mother's own fucking will. The characteristics she gave me to are easily dominated by his filthy shit. She didn't want me, but he forced her, forced her to make a copy of himself. I won't let it happen. He was a monster, I will not become him again. 

   I'm not driving yet, but my knuckles are white from holding onto the steering wheel so tight. I need to calm down, I fucking need to. I promised her.