Random Crap For Your Enjoyment

I Need Help. (trigger warning)

Today I got told that I'm a total fuck up who should kill themselves. Then by a different person I was told that I was selfish for cutting Myself. 

Am I a terrible person? I didn't mean to hurt anyone. I still think it would be easier if I just weren't here. But am I that bad that someone has the need to push me off the edge? Should I be out of this world? It's not Like I'm not dying. I am. Everyone is. Every single breath you take, Every minute that passes, is just another one closer to the last. So what's the point really?

Not only that, if it wasn't enough already, It was like God was trying to send me a signal through my music. It kept playing songs that remind me of how fucked up I am. Songs that were about suicide too. like Danger line by A7x and Mastermind MSI and Asleep The smiths. It's like they all want me to just die. It's like the world Just wants me to die. the lyrics were just . . . so true. 

I don't want to wake up on my own anymore

Your time has come, kiss it all goodbye

Don't feel bad for me I want you to know deep in the cell of my heart I really want to go

I never meant to hurt the ones who cared 

I want to die. 

I don't know what to do anymore. 

everything that has ever helped me before is gone. 

I feel like I am an empty shell of a person who was once so out going and happy, but the soul inside was burned away leaving an empty pit for a shell of a human. 

Life Isn't worth living anymore to me.