I think it's stress, or maybe it's all the anxiety taking a toll on me. I'm so scared of rejection. It's taking my life from me. I want to be talkative, I wish I was confident, I wish it was easier to smile, and most of all I wish I fit in.
I know I'm not alone but it feels like it. My depression will strike at random times and it's the worst feeling; loneliness.
I want to feel whole again. I want to smile genuinely. I want to be stronger. I want to be able to do simple things like other girls. I feel like I'm never good enough, not even for myself. I want to be better but every time I try, I feel sick and tired.
It all just makes my brain hurt.
