My Protector ✔

Chapter Eight

Chapter 8

I walked through the halls of this retched school. A place I hated to go. I felt eyes watching me but I just ignored them. The images were still fresh in my mind from weeks ago. I still couldn't believe what I saw. If Jacob was one of them then what did that make me? That was a question that stuck with me since Mike left my room.

As I made my way to my locker I could feel danger just waiting for me. As I rounded the corner, there stood the same girls that put Lilly's in my locker. This time there wasn't any snickering, they just stood there watching. I opened my locker and prepared for the worst but nothing happened. 

I looked over my shoulder at them and they just waved. I grabbed my books but then noticed a note fell from inside the locker, I picked it up and it had two words written on it 'We're Sorry' I just balled up the paper and closed my locker, then headed off to class. If you hadn't noticed I don't have too many friends here, hell I have none at all. I know a few people at Jacob's school, but I wouldn't call them friends.

I went throughout the rest of the day with no one making fun of me or being rude. It's like they all were waiting for me to self-destruct. But I kind of liked it this way. My teachers helped me with all the work I missed. Good thing school is over in the next few months, then I don't have to worry about all this. I sat at my usual table at lunch and ate my food Mike packed for me. 

Before I could really enjoy my lunch, the cafeteria grew quiet. I looked up to locate the cause of the sudden quietness and see that Mike and Jacob were standing by the door. Once we locked eyes the whispers began to flow, and they made their way towards me. Girls stared in awe and boys stared in envy because their girls were practically drooling over Mike and Jay. Soon the whispers grew into talking and the whole cafeteria was back to its normal volume. As they got closer I stood with a look of confusion on my face.

"What are you guys doing here?" I asked worriedly.

"We came to make sure you were alright, and to talk to you." Jaycob said hugging me.

"Couldn't this have waited until I got back to the house?" I asked stepping out of his arms. They both grew quiet and looked at one another. "Mike, Jay, what's going on?" I asked growing scared.

"Dad's back and he's looking for us both." Jaycob said in a low tone.

"We believe he's coming after you first so we thought he'd come by the school and try something." Mike spoke up.

"What do you mean he's back? Where did he go?" I asked confused.

"That's the thing, we don't know." Jaycob started.

"After I got Jaycob out of the house I don't know what happened. So I think it's best if we get you out now before it's too late." Mike said with a cautious voice. I just stood there looking at the two unable to fully register what was happening.

"Lil are you okay?" Mike asked taking cautious steps towards me but I just took a step away from him.

I was unable to speak. Everything I knew was soon becoming a heaping pile of mess. Nothing can ever go right in my life for longer than a few days. But I've been told time and time again; 'Every great thing must come to an end'. But that was the thing, I wasn't ready for this to end. I still had questions that went unanswered, and observations that went unseen. I needed to know what the world was like living a fairy tale. I needed to know!

As I screamed those words in my head, my mind swallowed me into captivity and blocked out the world. I couldn't see. I couldn't feel. I couldn't hear. Nothing mattered anymore. In a matter of time everything and everyone will be gone, obsolete, erased from the face of the earth, and where will Jay and Mike be? Living a brand new life like nothing ever happened. 

Rage soon took over my thoughts, I wanted to fight off the feelings, I wanted to smash things and run wild like an animal. I just had this itch to tear a tree apart with my bare hands. It was a strange feeling I always get when I'm like this, like the forest is my domain to rule or something.

The more I tried to find the right words to speak I became distant and felt lonely. There is no one here to protect me if I stay. But then I would feel left out if I went. I didn't fit in anywhere, no matter who I had on my side.

So tangled in my thoughts I hadn't noticed someone had wrapped their arms around me. My mind was so gone I couldn't find the strength to hug them back and assure them I would be fine, which I know wasn't true.

"Devin is here he'll keep a close eye on you that way you won't feel too lonely. But if you ever need anything don't hesitate to call me." A voice said. I stared into the eyes of the owner but I couldn't make out the face. Nothing seemed clear to me. I couldn't tell if it was Jay or Mike speaking to me but I knew that they were trying to protect me. Obediently I nodded and gave off what I thought was a smile.

"Oh no." I heard the second voice say in a scared voice.

"What?" Asked the first voice. 

Without another word, I felt myself being pulled by the arm. As we walked I still couldn't find the strength to clear my mind from the sudden fog that has filled it. Whenever things got too rough for me to handle and too much to think about my mind freezes over, and I only respond with what I think is right.

The voices that once filled the cafe were now silenced and all I heard were our shoes stepping onto the tiled floor. Silence. Pure silence. It felt like I was on a cloud drifting away in peace. I didn't want to be released from this sense of peace I was feeling but I knew sooner or later it will soon fade away. Just like the sound of our shoes. 

I hear voices speaking to one another, or are they speaking to me. I feel hands on my shoulders lightly shaking me. I can feel but it all seems so foreign to me. I stare blankly into the eyes of the owner but nothing clicks. It's just a blank face with blank eyes, and a blank expression. Blank. Nothingness took over my body and mind as I drifted further into my mind fog. The further I go the less I feel, hear, and see.

I lift my hand and touch the face of the owner tenderly. My hands roam over their features as I close my eyes and picture what I see. Eyes, brown. Eyebrows, thin. Hair, long and bushy, brown. Ears, medium-sized. Nose, small yet firm. Lips, soft and full. Cheeks, round and warm. Face, Jacob. I smiled and kissed his cheek. I felt his body relax under the touch of my lips to his skin.

I hear voices but I don't understand what's being said. The next body moves towards me and I do the same. Hair, short and stubby, blond. Eyebrows, thin. Eyes, oval, medium, hazel blue with a mixture of grey. Nose, long and pointed. Cheeks, round and masculine. Lips, full. Face, Mike. I stand on my tip-toes and kiss his lips. I pull away but everything is still foggy. 

I heard a voice speaking to me but I don't register what's going on. I feel my hand being guided up. Soon I feel Jacob's face. He takes my finger and touches his forehead then the side of his face. I understood what he wanted me to do. We did this when we were little. 

Whenever I was too upset to talk he'd have me answer yes or no by touching his face. Forehead was yes, the side of his face was no, and whenever I didn't really know how to answer I would make a circle on his cheek. I heard him speak but I couldn't make out what he was saying. They waited. I just stood there. My hand found his face and I made a circle on his cheek. I felt him shaking his head in disappointment.

Moments later I heard a loud piercing sound that shot through my ears and went straight to my brain. My hands flew to my ears as I slumped back away from them and slid down the wall. Everything slowly began to come back to me. I could hear loud voices laughing and talking, shoes; a lot of them. But I still couldn't register what was going on.
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EDIT: 5/25/15

EDIT:12/14/19