Oblivion

Chapter 7

(Sorry for a quick and short update!! I was thinking to myself and I'm sorry if the story has been kind of all of over the place. I feel like the last chapter was really crappy..hmmm. I criticize and critique myself way too much, but In the story I go back and forth between past and present, if you hadn't noticed already. But I really hope you're enjoying the story so far! I'd love your comments!! But yeah enjoy!! I'm listening to High School Musical oh snap....talk about throwback....Just in case you were wondering... I'm so lame ._. -Lexi )

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The moonlight illuminated throughout the room. He was standing there, looking right at me. The man who hurt me stood before me and yet I had nothing to say to him. I wasn't afraid, I wasn't sad or mad. I was disappointed. I just wanted to know how someone can love you, but hurt you at the same time.

I thought i'd be ready for the moment when we came face to face. I was so angry and now, I feel nothing. I feel violated and used. I don't think I can trust anyone, not even myself.

"Hi." He said.

"Why?" I blurted out.

He smirked while running his fingers through his hair, "Uh that's a good question...One i'm still trying to figure out."

"I'm not mad just so you know, I was, but i'm not anymore, I honestly don't know why, but I know it wasn't really you that did this to me. I should be angry, but being mad at the world and everything else gets tiring. And what's the point anyways?"

"Look I understand if you don't ever want to see me again. To be honest I thought this was going to go a lot worse. I mean look what I did to you. I haven't been able to live with myself! For god's sake I even thought about ki-killing myself!"

He burst into tears and sunk to the floor, his head in between his knees. I know he didn't mean to do this to me, but he still could've stopped. Instead he went on and on, one kick, one hit after another.

I took out the IV in my arm, and slowly got out of the bed. It was the first time since the incident that I physically moved around. It was the first time that I saw him. I made my way towards him and I sat down. I gave him a hug and I didn't let go. The truth is I didn't want to let go.

The things he did will never be forgotten, and I know that one day I will completely forgive him. But I can't just shut him out, not right now. He needs me and I need him. I'm not willing to give up just yet. Maybe i'm crazy. I don't know if he will ever do this to me again, but sometimes you just have to be willing enough to take a risk. He may have put me through hell and may have almost killed me, but I still love him. I now know what I want, and that's Luke.