From Beginning To End - Recovery [Completed]

Chapter 4 ~ Back In Routine

~1 Week Later~

Sqaishey's POV
It feels nice to have at least one thing back to normal. YouTube is back in my life. I have motivation to do something other than spend all day crying over pictures of my friends on Instagram.

Yes I know everything else is different, most of my best friends are dead and a lot of my new ones, my house is filled to the top with YouTubers, I'm having twins that I'm not ready for really soon and most importantly I have experienced things nobody ever wants to. I saw my friends get killed. I saw potential YouTubers get their future taken away. I saw my ex leading the group who was responsible. I never want to go back to the war memories.

But I do. Every single night. I have nightmares about it. Jimmy is the only person I have told. I know I should tell Stampy, but I don't want it to effect him.

~Time Skip 1 Hour~

I stopped recording and just moments later, Stampy yelled, "Sqaishey! Colleen! Scott! Your meal is going cold!"

I leapt off my chair in my office and raced down the stairs, closely followed by Colleen who was currently Miranda.

"Sorry Stamps! I was recording and I didn't hear you," I explained, walking into the dining room.

"Me too," Colleen said.

"It's ok girls. Sit down and eat your Rice and Chips," Stampy told us.

"Ooh!" Colleen exclaimed.

"You too Scott," Stamps added as Scott walked in.

"Sorry! I was skyping my parents and didn't hear you," he informed us.

~Time Skip To After Meal~

"Thank you Stampy!" I thanked.

"You should also thank Lizzie. She cooked the rice whilst I did the chips," He replied.

"Oh. Thanks Lizzie!" I added.

"No problem Sqaish. After all, we are in your house so I felt the need to help," she told me.

"Don't feel like you must. We like having you all here, don't we Stamps?" I replied.

"We definitely do!" He told everyone.

"Anyway I'm going to go and upload, sorry if it makes the Internet slow. It always was terrible when it was just me and Stamps so I don't want to think how it is now," I said. Then I went up to my office (which I now have to myself again) and uploaded today's video.

Hi! I updated again!

If you were wondering why they ate Rice and Chips, it's because I'm currently abroad and every single day for tea/evening meal or whatever you call it, I have had Rice and Chips (occasionally with some small piece of meat) and bread.

Anyway, I'll let you get on with the rest of your day and I'll let you go!

Byeee!

~Erin x

Note: Updates Back Properly Tomorrow Hopefully! I Land Back In England At About Half 5 And Get Home About 7 So I May Only Write A Small Chapter Because I'll Be Tired x