Love me (A Princeton Love Story) •ON HOLD•

Chapter 17

Jacob. . .

I wasn't sleep, and neither was YN. What ever her problem was had made me feel some type of way, and I wanted to stay up with her until she fell asleep in case she hadn't felt stable. I shook her a little and she turned towards me.

"What's wrong YN?" I questioned. She shook her head nothing, and told me that she couldn't sleep with a dry throat. I still felt like something was up, so I kept asking until she finally told me.

"Nothing, it's just I wanted to slap the black off your brother."

"Why?"

"He bumped into me without saying excuse me; and he grabbed my arm. He'd obviously been begging for another fight." She said.

"I want you to stop trying to beat him up, YN." I chuckled.

She smiled at me, her beautiful smile glistening in the dim room. I wanted to share all I had with her, and I'd wanted her to give into me as well. Without thinking, I leaned in slowly and began to kiss her. She kissed back after a while and caressed my cheeks. Her touch made me realize that I'd made a mistake, I was moving to fast. Just a day ago I'd said I hadn't wanted to do anything with her until she was truly better, and right now I'm breaking my promise. Whether she'd been kissing back or not.

I pulled away from her and apologized. "I'm so sorry YN." She gave me a confused glance.

"Sorry for what?" She wondered.

"I hadn't told you this but that night we'd had that argument I'd made a promise to myself that I wouldn't try anything with you until you were better."

"I am better. . ." She said. "I've been better since I fell in love with you and you promised you'd protect me. . ." She looked down and moved her arms from around my neck.

YN had just admitted that she'd loved me and felt protected with me. Although it'd only been a couple weeks, her recovery had been fast and we'd slowly began to fall in love.

"YN I-"

"No it's okay, Jacob. I swear." She turned the opposite direction from me. I heard her sniff and automatically knew she'd been crying.

"Baby-"

"How could you say I wasn't cured? You've given me food, a shelter, a better life, and you have Rachel making me feel like a girl again. You make me feel protected Jacob. I haven't felt like that in a while. If you truly loved me the way I loved you then you would see my recovery. . ." She sobbed.

I pulled her back to me with force, because she'd been resistant to my every touch and word. I had my arms wrapped around her stomach and allowed her to cry on me.

"Listen, baby. If I didn't love you I wouldn't have carried you from miles away, I wouldn't have bought you food, I wouldn't have had Rachel or anyone else pitch in to help, and I wouldn't have stuck with you when you would beat me to death while you were sleeping. I've been in love with you since I first saved your ass from rotting in that dirty alley. It was love at first sight with you, YN. You were the first person I'd had a crush on, and you are the only person I would do all this for. Regardless of your background. I'm going to stick with you until it's my time. I love You, YN." I told her. I'd poured my heart out to this girl.

She faced me again and put her face in my chest and continued to cry. I leaned down and wiped her tears away. I wrapped my arms tighter around her and held her close to me, like we were inseparable.

Once she'd finished crying, I'd glanced at the clock. It read 3:42 a.m. I'd been with her this whole time also. I stayed awake with her.

She looked at me and noticed I'd still been awake. She pulled the cover over our heads and started kissing me emotionally, making me feel her sadness and feelings. Although we were only kissing, I couldn't help the small tent that had began forming in my sweats. I think YN began to feel me and stopped kissing me.

I'd been so embarrassed and I felt my face turning hot red. She looked down under the covers and felt my sweats. I couldn't see her facial expression but I could tell she was shocked. I was probably wrong because she'd pulled my sweats and boxers down, feeling my member.

She said nothing as she went farther under the covers. She must have been used to giving other men pleasure, but no. I still felt like this wasn't a good time to do it. I grabbed her wrists and pulled her up from below. "No, I'm sorry I can't. I can't do it." She gave me that "what the fuck" look.

"What are you talking about, Jacob?" She questioned.

"I can't let you get me to have sex with you! You've been trying! YN I'm trying to change you from your old ways, can't you see? As many times as you've turned me on I haven't gave any to you, babe. I'm trying to stay tame but your-"

"I'm what?"

"Your confused. Just because we're together and we're in love with each other doesn't mean we show it by having you suck or ride my dick. As harsh as it may sound, it's the truth. Whatever they told you in that place has you lost. That's why I'm trying to change you, YN. I'm trying to show you how to love."

She then looked very hurt and embarrassed. She teared up and once again buried herself into my chest, letting it all out to me. I stroked her head, allowing her to vent.

"I'm sorry, Jacob." She apologized.

Although there was no reason for her to apologize, she was just learning.

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YN. . .

What happened last night in our room didnt leave our room. Jacob had made it clear to me that being in love didn't mean you have to have sex to show it. That long night of sobbing and venting, I'd say I've learned my lesson.

Besides that, the second day of improving myself was going to be no better than the first. I awoke peacefully, having had Jacob's arms wrapped softly around my waist. 

I walked into the livingroom rubbing my eyes. I was greeted by Rachel, who'd been cooking.

"Goodmorning, boo."

"Goodmorning." I groaned back. Rachel giggled and walked to me. She ran her fingers through my head.

"So, you ready?." She asked, pulling at my ends.

"Ready for what?"

"Ready for today. Im going full in on you."

I smiled a little at her willingness for me. This would be absolutely great, it being that eveyone will be pitching in once again to help me get better.

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