We are always led into being something we are not.
Have you ever felt confused on who you are? Confused on the fact that you don't know who to be. There's the person you want to be, the person everyone wants you to be and the person you need to be.
You are then stuck in a tornado between them. Going round and round trying to be someone different and it always ends terribly. It always feels wrong but it makes others around you happy.
But at what price?
You lose yourself and the feeling of emptiness haunts you. You try so hard and all that effort blows up leaving nothing.
This was how I felt and it didn't feel good. I always expected my life to be more but I wasn't getting to the place where I felt satisfied.
I had the best friends who would stay by my side. They were the ones I shared the most wonderful memories with but it never felt like it was enough. I had a loving, caring family who showered me with love (sometimes) and it still never felt like it was enough.
No matter what I did I couldn't stop feeling like there was a part of me missing and without it there was no point to live. Despite, the friends and family I still felt alone. I tried everything to fix the problem. I'd be someone different. It made me happy but that happiness didn't last and I was back wishing for my life to be over.
Whatever it was that I was missing I really needed to find it and put myself together because the day all teenagers dread was just a day away. The end of summer. Which meant school.
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Dreams
RomancePain. It's all I every felt. Until the same dream I had every night started to give me hope, started to give a meaning to my life. After that everything changed.
