Sophmore Life

Love Life

I have had many and I mean MANY failed relationships. The first guy I've dated, I am currently in a relationship with. We were on and off, due to back then with our stupidity.

I lacked to see the perfect guy.

I went here from there, it kept on getting worse. I was basically Monica from F.R.I.E.N.D.S . She always had failed relationships and seeked out the bad boyfriends. That was basically me and I DIDN'T know it. See, I did have a phase for a year or two. Where I questioned my sexuality. I was having all these thoughts.

Am I a lesbian? Am I bisexual? Am I trans?

I was basically questioning myself back then.

But then I realized, I did not specify in any of those. I was pansexual meaning, I didn't care of gender. All I cared for was personality and that I love them.

I have to be honest you guys, I honestly thought I was lesbian, even when I was with my ex boyfriend. No, but it all changed once a certain friend of mine and I began to talk.

That person is, McMistle . He was my first lover. I dont know why we ever broke up- oh here's why.

OUR STUPIDITY

In all honesty though, I had never changed my feelings for him, keep in mind we meet like 5 years ago. He did have some too, but he didn't want to make it obvious. But I did...so...uh...yeah.

Well, when my ex and I were having miscommunications, he was there for me, advicing me what to do. I'm honestly glad my ex dumped me, if he hadn't I wouldn't be with McMistle. I'm honestly crazy for this guy. He's my world, my sunshine and overall just the light of my day.

He's cute as a button, and I love how he talks about the future of him and I. He makes little plans, I feel like I'm talking to him in person. To me, he's dreamy.

He understands me, knows me very well, we like the same things, I was too blind to see that the perfect guy was always with me.

He fell asleep while were chatting, I hope you rest well love. By the way, good morning!~

I love you! McMistle

August 29, 2017 12:01 AM